WHERE IS?.......

more like a page in my journal

the power of prayer?

i dont think god is listening to me anymore

and the devil has turned his head in a different direction

allah dosn't approve of my lifestyle

and i have too much rage for buddah

i dont think i have any friends left to call on when i am in a time of need

honestly, sad enough i'm even growing tired of me

i just wanna run and never stop

or go to sleep for a few years

i cant drink and i hate drugs

i have no energy left to workout

so i can just sit and think and hope everything gets better

.....before i make it worse again

when i train to fight, fight or spar, or workout,im trying to fight this s**t inside

things have to get better

because i dont have the strength to go on if i cant fix this

so god, please, if you are there..show me a sign

JUST TAKE AWAY THIS ANXIETY, THIS UNEASINESS, THESE BURNING EMBERS INSIDE THAT WILL NOT CEASE...THESE RACING THOUGHTS, THIS OVERWHELMING SENSE OF LONLINESS AND GLOOM...
I HAVENT BEEN RELAXED WHEN I WAS SOBER COMPLETELY IN 23 YEARS..I HAVE BEEN ANXIOUS 24/7 FOR 23 YEARS....COULD ANYONE IMAGINE WHAT IT WOULD DO TO YOU, HOW THAT WOULD FEEL, TO ALWAYS BE ON EDGE YOUR WHOLE LIFE?...IM TRYING SO HARD TO STAY CLEAN, TO STAY SOBER. TO DEFEAT THIS S**T AND CHANGE IT, ON MY OWN...JUST PLEASE...SHOW ME HOW TO GET ALL OF THIS OUT...HOW TO RELEASE IT...BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER SEEN OR BEEN SHOWN HOW....I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL

Reviews

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It's hard to say that I like something like this, because you can't like it in the way you would normally like something. But I like it because it's honest and real and even if I've never struggled with these same exact things, I can relate it to what I have struggled with. Your emotions are so strongly communicated through this.