Shell

i simply fall within
sedative my dearest friend
abandoned by most
seems you were always there
unlisted ways to reach
no i will not hear you preach
i throw myself down the flight of stairs
regardless of your common sense
from life i beg for abstinance
lacking things of sustanace
one time within this substance stitich
still it fails to hold me together one last time
no i will not beg
nor will you hear me plead
excommunicate dehydration
hydrated from what i bleed
give me anger
please just fuel more for me
its made of the blackest masses
torch it all with matches
this lust and rage leave traces on this matress
so fall, go fall
DOWN WITH ME
YOU! i am nothing, im nothing
i dont have dreams
my mind stays in nightmares
you cant understand
youre so blessed, so pure
im so damned, so man
guess im not what appeared
here i am, guess im so clear
see through me
transparent child at 23
despite the scales that gauge
i am not my age
never grew up because i was never raised
the truth is cannot let go
of past memories
so im just a landfill of insecurities
this fire comsumes me
WHY SHOULD YOU CARE!?
its no ones place to soothe me
i cant find prayer
this cloak, this shell
hides me
IM SO SCARED
of life the things it holds
so i fight to hide from you
truth is better off for you?
im scared of how i feel
IM SO INSECURE
I JUST WANT TO HIDE
MASKED THESE FEELINGS IN ME
f**k my shadow
WHY DO YOU CARE?