My Loss

Time has flown by

Days, months, years

And all this time was spent alone

Without you

 

I never thought I’d be without you

I could not have foreseen this

Sometimes it feels like just yesterday

You were here with me

Wrapped tightly in my arms

 

We made plans

A family was in the makings

We were young but we were determined

The first step was made

 

But arrogance is my worst enemy

The loose ends caught up to us

And here I sit now

So long without you

 

The actions made that day haunt me still

In hindsight, I wish I had been the mature one

I wish I had been all that you thought I was

In the end I fell short

 

A boy trying to be a man

A grievous error was made

No amount of time can erase the shame

Nor the pain of your loss

 

The stupidity of us all

Has cost you most of all

Now I sit and I realize just how long you’ve been gone

Just how much I’ve lost out on

 

I grieve for the loss of you

I yearn for what could have been

And I realize that nothing will ever be the same