Today's excuse

A Poem by Bliss.x

You didn't want to be intimate with me today but that's ok I know you're probably tired
I'm not sure where you've been all day but I won't question you
I will give you your space

You didn't want to come to my family event today
It's ok I told everyone you were busy,
I know you weren't but maybe you felt shy

My friends think I seem unhappy since I've been with you
They asked me to name one nice thing you've done for me
But we're happy aren't we babe? I told them how amazing you are

You hurt me today when you tried to push me down the stairs
But I know I made you angry because I was being too nice
And I know that gets you mad so I'm sorry

You told me today that you didn't love me anymore
That's ok we can work through it, you said I was the only one for you
I won't let you down

We had a laugh today didn't we it was really fun
I love seeing you smile, I'd make you smile every day if I could
I know im not perfect but I do my very best

Sometimes I wish I could spend more time with you because your always out
But I know you have your own life
So I try not to show that I'm a little disappointed

Today you called me and asked me to run you some errands
I had plans but it's ok they can wait,
You made fun of me in front of your friends, but it's ok I know it's just banter

It was my sisters birthday today but you'd rather I didn't go out
It's ok I told her I couldn't afford it this time
I stayed in even though you went out

I wasn't really keen on moving into your house
I wasn't quite ready to give up my home, but you said it proved I didn't love you
So I came didn't I baby, I left my home town and gave everything away

You wasn't keen on the social media sites I used
that's ok I've deleted them all, sometimes I miss my family
But I can always phone them so it's no biggie

You needed some new stuff but you didn't have much money,
I had some savings so I shared them with you
what's mine is yours you don't need to ask

You said I looked fat today
that upset me a little bit but I didn't mean to cause a row
I will try to do some exercise so I look better for you

I look for your affection if everything you do,
If I'm able to get you this mad it's because you love me so much,
As they say there's a fine line between love and hate

I cuddle up to you at night just to let you know it's ok,
Everything you did to me is forgotten now we're in our happy zone,
I hope you know that's why I hold you at night

I thought I was pregnant, I missed two periods
I was frightened to tell you, you said it wasn't yours if I was
And that I'd be on my own
But I want you and our baby
how am I going to explain this to everyone if you don't stand by me?

© 2015 Bliss.x

Author's Note

Not really a poem, I was just sitting today thinking of all the excuses I made for him, I feel so silly now. I wasn't pregnant in the end which although it's probably for the best I do still feel sad as I wanted our child. I realise it was a far from perfect scenario to have a child in but it's crazy what ideas you paint in your own head when you're so in love.

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Olumegbon

Okay wow, this really got to me. Thinking right here if all this is true and wishing its not. Nice write up by the way.

Posted 10 Years Ago

10 Years Ago

Thank you :)

Socioloverboy

To give and just be taken from is so painful. I was just doing some research of psychopathic relationships because I believe I was recently involved in one. Loving someone regardless of their flaws is hard and uncontrollable. So sad that it often ends in despair. I too hope you are in a better place.