Today's excuse

A Poem by Bliss.x

You didn't want to be intimate with me today but that's ok I know you're probably tired
I'm not sure where you've been all day but I won't question you
I will give you your space

You didn't want to come to my family event today
It's ok I told everyone you were busy,
I know you weren't but maybe you felt shy

My friends think I seem unhappy since I've been with you
They asked me to name one nice thing you've done for me
But we're happy aren't we babe? I told them how amazing you are

You hurt me today when you tried to push me down the stairs
But I know I made you angry because I was being too nice
And I know that gets you mad so I'm sorry

You told me today that you didn't love me anymore
That's ok we can work through it, you said I was the only one for you
I won't let you down

We had a laugh today didn't we it was really fun
I love seeing you smile, I'd make you smile every day if I could
I know im not perfect but I do my very best

Sometimes I wish I could spend more time with you because your always out
But I know you have your own life
So I try not to show that I'm a little disappointed

Today you called me and asked me to run you some errands
I had plans but it's ok they can wait,
You made fun of me in front of your friends, but it's ok I know it's just banter

It was my sisters birthday today but you'd rather I didn't go out
It's ok I told her I couldn't afford it this time
I stayed in even though you went out

I wasn't really keen on moving into your house
I wasn't quite ready to give up my home, but you said it proved I didn't love you
So I came didn't I baby, I left my home town and gave everything away

You wasn't keen on the social media sites I used
that's ok I've deleted them all, sometimes I miss my family
But I can always phone them so it's no biggie

You needed some new stuff but you didn't have much money,
I had some savings so I shared them with you
what's mine is yours you don't need to ask

You said I looked fat today
that upset me a little bit but I didn't mean to cause a row
I will try to do some exercise so I look better for you

I look for your affection if everything you do,
If I'm able to get you this mad it's because you love me so much,
As they say there's a fine line between love and hate

I cuddle up to you at night just to let you know it's ok,
Everything you did to me is forgotten now we're in our happy zone,
I hope you know that's why I hold you at night

I thought I was pregnant, I missed two periods
I was frightened to tell you, you said it wasn't yours if I was
And that I'd be on my own
But I want you and our baby
how am I going to explain this to everyone if you don't stand by me?

© 2015 Bliss.x

Author's Note

Not really a poem, I was just sitting today thinking of all the excuses I made for him, I feel so silly now. I wasn't pregnant in the end which although it's probably for the best I do still feel sad as I wanted our child. I realise it was a far from perfect scenario to have a child in but it's crazy what ideas you paint in your own head when you're so in love.

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Olumegbon

Okay wow, this really got to me. Thinking right here if all this is true and wishing its not. Nice write up by the way.

Posted 9 Years Ago

9 Years Ago

Thank you :)

Socioloverboy

To give and just be taken from is so painful. I was just doing some research of psychopathic relationships because I believe I was recently involved in one. Loving someone regardless of their flaws is hard and uncontrollable. So sad that it often ends in despair. I too hope you are in a better place.