Picked Scab

Returning pain

Once we got separated, it all hit me. I looked back and recognized all the times he had lied to me. I see that he didn't really care about me. He wasn't a good person. He wasn't who he said he was. I felt so sick. So alone. I didn't want to be alive. I became afraid. If someone so close like him could betray me, who else might? I tortured myself, physically and mentally.

But, as time went by, my wounds healed. My memories faded. My thoughts changed topics. I no longer cried every night about the traitor I thought I loved. I stopped worrying about him. I trusted people. I kept myself safe. I worked hard to wipe the memories away. I got help. I recovered. 

Until eventually, it was gone. I was far beyond that point in my life. Not a single bit of my mind ever wandered back to the pain and misery that once existed. I focused on the time at hand. I made decisions. Never did that horrible event cross my mind.

But not only a day ago, I saw a sign. A story. A joke. It made me laugh at first. But then as my realization sunk in, everything fell apart. Again. The memories filled my head. Tears filled my eyes. I lost all control. I lost everything I worked for. It triggered all the feelings and painful memories of when I was betrayed by a loved one. I had worked so hard to forget. I had gotten myself healthy with the help of others. I had become a happier person all around. 

But all of that hard work to move on, has been for nothing.

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[Arthas Menethil]

However much you wanted someone to want you, there was nothing you could do to make it happen. Whatever you did for them, whatever you gave them, whatever you let them take, it could never be enough. Never enough to be sure. Never enough to satisfy them. Never enough to stop them from walking away. Pain from losing someone you once loved is the hardest pain to get over. You can deny and avoid the truth. But you cannot destroy the truth. Nor can you make the lie true. You must know that love will always uncover the truth, and the truth may not be what you expected or wanted. Love is the key to many, it can save, or end someone, but you must always remember... There will always be someone that will love you, someway, somehow. Everyone has someone ment for them. It could take a lifetime to find that one ment for you, but eventually. You will find him/her.