Best loved once I had

 

 

A warm breeze is kissing my face as I walk into a garden. I saw flowers, ladybugs, and butterflies flying around me. I sat upon a bench and rested my back and started thinking deeply.

I reminisced in the past four years of my college life, it as the most wonderful and the most unforgettable experienced I once had with someone who loved me, pampered, and cared for me a lot

It is a love story that all started with a joke……

 When I was in college we had this place where always hang out, our”Tambayan”. In this place I met Caleb. He is not tall, not so dark, and not so handsome either but yet he’s a neat freak. I always pass by him whenever we’re having our lunch. He always smiles at me and teases me. Oftentimes He will tell me that I’m beautiful, he likes my cheeks. I never take it seriously though I thought he’s kind of serious …. Thought he was just joking around. As a times goes by, the smiles and the jokes became frequent that he will invite me to sit besides him and to tell him story about my life.

 

One day he asks me if we could go to church together. I have nothing to do so I agreed. Within the short time I am with him I seen the real him, a natural, yet shy type of guy the total opposites of me.

 We got along very well.

One leisure time, he asked me for walk. While walking, he was looking he was looking at me as if he has his own world, thinking deeply out of my curiosity I asked him he is looking at me the way. He stopped walking at the shock of my life went down on his knees and proposed. His exact words are still fresh in my mind…”I’m in love with you. Will you be my girl? Please... I almost stumble at my feet, I felt like am melting like a butter exposed under the sun. I didn’t know how to react. No words come out to my mouth. Right there in a split of a second, two kids started singing right before me, each one holding a white rose. After a while, another kid approached me and gave me the most beautiful bouquet ever; balloons started to float on the air. Unconsciously, I was already crying for no one has ever done that to me. I embraced him and alas butterflies flapped over my tummy. Three months later we become couple.

 He dreamt of becoming an engineer while I dreamt of becoming a successful lawyer. We planned of getting married and raising a family after we become stable in our career.

Then came our 5^th year anniversary………………..

 

I just finished my class that afternoon and I was rushing towards our campus gate. I’m quite sure he was already there waiting for me because he called and told me he has something important to tell me. When I got there outside he wasn’t there. I cast my sight from left to right …but still there’s no sign of his presence. I was so disappointed at the same time thinking that he was just tripping. I almost cried but I never lose hope and so I decided to check his cark on the parking lot. “Oh my GOSSHH” I sighed…. Suddenly an unusual noise flutter over the air, it was a sound of a helicopter. I looked up then everything around me stopped. Slowly petals of white roses are falling from above. Now Caleb is standing in front of me carrying a huge Teddy bear (and it was Teddy ). He was smiling. An honest smile he always had. The feeling was eternal; our moment was so intimate. Guess I was drowning in his love for me, we’re invincible.

A week passed……

Strange as he was when I first met him but now it was different I felt something was wrong though I could not see any mistakes about us……

 We went out for a dinner; still the strange feeling never left me. From time to time he would whisper to my ears the three ultimate words….’I love you….”

 As we were eating he told me that he planned for an out of town trip to boracay….. I was so happy to hear it and I being his girlfriend was never hesitant to agree to go with him to such a nice place known as the island paradise, him and his sweetest deeds.

The day of our trip came. We arrived there at about 10:00pm in the evening. We were tired so as soon we got ourselves into our room, we changed and prepared ourselves to sleep. Out of he blue he embraced me and kissed me. I feel asleep between his arms. I thought to myself …’this guy gave me all the comfort in the world all that I need... if they’ll be a man I’m living with for the rest of my life, it would him”...

 

He then embraced me so tight and whispers in my ears “ I  love you so much!”.

 

I looked straight into his eyes wondering what he could be eating these past few days for he has been so romantic. He kissed my hand and put over on his chest. He was crying …I asked him what’s the matter is and explained to me that he was just so happy that he had me, that he was lucky to have ma and that he would not anyone be married to him but me, and I believed him. The passion I felt as I was lying peacefully beside him.

The next morning when I woke up he was not by my side. I stood up and looked for him. Flowers were scattered all over the room and breakfast is waiting for me. He was treating me as if I was a queen! He came out of the room’s small kitchen holding a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice and gave it to me.

 

He said, “Here I know that’s your favorite so I thought of having it for you.”

I smiled and said “thanks!”

He replied to me “I LOVE YOU!”

The trip has been a whole lot of fun activities with him. After three days we packed and went home straight. He drove me home and as he was about to leave he glanced back, I asked him why….. He ran to the direction where I was standing hugged me so tight. Right there and then I felt all the love he has for me ever since the day he proposed to me…..he was so passionate. He held my face and looked straight to my eyes and said “I m sorry Hon I never told you ….” The next words which come out of his mouth I never heard off, for the whole world was shattering in front of me…down on his knees like the time I first learned about his feeling for me. He told me that he has a brain cancer! He died while explaining to me why he never told me so… that was his last day …the last time I would be hearing his tender voice, the last time I embraced he used to make me feel …the last …the last…how could I ever live without him now, now that I planned of growing old with him? What about our plans? What about our dreams?

The strange things I felt… the strange things I noticed…that …all of that were premonitions that soon he’ll be gone1 if only I knew, if only I learned about earlier… I could have shown him everything that he really deserves …all the love I can give…if only I could sustain the life given to him by GOD…

 

On the day of his burial was the most difficult part of it. I can’t get any closer to his coffin … I can’t accept the fact that he was already gone. The pain is unbearable…

On the day of his burial was the most difficult part of it. I can’t get any closer to his coffin … I can’t accept the fact that he was already gone. The pain is unbearable…

Four years have passed… I thought I could never survive… wounds are still fresh but I’m trying very hard to move on. I am now working as a lawyer trying to overcome the trauma I had. Often I would reminisce about our times together about the sweet things he always do for me, our moments, the passion, everything about Caleb…

Caleb… the best love once I had!

Author's Note

It was a sad story it makes sense..If you loved somoene show her and tell her how much you loved her.