UNORTHODOX AFFAIR

 

I shaved my beard this morning

Symbolic rite of grief

Tale of separation

A love not meant to be

You pleaded with me not to leave

Yet I’m the one abandoned

Why

It’s not important now

This lie we have become

Hope fades in darkness

As dreams evaporate

Unorthodox affair

Romantic malnutrition

Perpetual mind games

Trumped by consequence

Heartache

Growing pains

Soul numbing sorrow

No reason to pretend

Fake it any longer

Harsh truth

Shackled spirit

Penetrating sting

Grand naivety

Destined to be fatal

So weary of the drama

Swinging pendulum

Orchestrated silence

Dreaded harbinger

Our friendship

Forged in hell

Full circle fate

No fond recollection

Much to my dismay

Blissful peaks

Far more brutal valleys

My patience

Now exhausted

At least I know the score

Crushing loneliness

Bridges burned by ego

Peace

Replaced by fear

Resentment

Disillusion

I’m grateful for the lesson

Despite such agony

Hardly worth such effort

Spiritual investment

My hungry heart

Unable

To flutter in uncertainty

Once I cared so deeply

Can’t feel it anymore

Safety net perhaps

Firewalled emotions

No honor in deception

Such a fool I’ve been

Clinging to false passion

Starry eyed façade

I’m strong this time

With purpose

Able to move on

I pray you find your answers

Wish you happiness

 

 

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009