Drowning Shadows

DROWNING SHADOWS

 

You held my heart like from the melted sand
Born anew, a vulnerable lump of living glass
You molded it so carelessly, as you saw fit
And just as it took shape you broke it
Threw it down, threw it away to my tearful screaming crash
And all was dark, long nights lasted
Beyond the hours of daylight and on
My eyes saw nothing but DROWNING SHADOWS
Drops clung to my eyes, sad as sadness goes, as sadness knows
Without discretion my light and life were gone
Curse bitten and worse beaten
And with all else what's worse?
Fate... the hidden observer
Seer and knower of all, just and unjust server
So what would he bring to compete with my thirsts?
Fate brings me Reminder
The personification of all that I am not
Heard and heard of, but not seen
But unfathomable leaps and bounds beyond what I had been
Having what I lacked, and getting what I never got
Fate might have brought him to you, it's true
But he brought him to me aswell
Why is it before the word of love again can be spoken
An existing love has to be torn out and broken?
Fate will kiss, but never tell
For a great happiness to exist
Pain, suffering and lose must come right along with it
And in this, I realize how selfish love really is
A revilation about this so called "selfless bliss"
Love is your own, and you choose when and to whom to give it
And in the wake of your hearts splash
There are some gasping for air
There are others drowning
A difference so resounding
But you're too blind to see it's there
And there I am, alone in the darkness
Up a creek without a boat, let alone a paddle
In the raging waters of your love
Losing the fight to keep my desperate breath above
Alone in the darkness, I am nothing more then a DROWNING SHADOW.