I Am Only Human

"I do not know what I will do. Or who I will be. Only what I am"

Misery empowers the mind as much as it burdens the soul,

And I, the lonely keeper of souls let their restlessness embody my emptiness.

I look upon the skin-like shades of raw, brittle ropes that twitch with eager tongues to lap at the necks of those willing to fail. 

I envision my own failure and know that I am caged. Bound and sealed for the world to look upon with constant loathing as disgust overwhelms the pity.

But I am only human.

I know the paths my errors take, the form, shape and smell of my sins, the very peak of loss within oneself that leaves only the evermore pitiful feeling of fear.

I have looked in terror at the reflection that reflects, the reflection that reveals and haunts, and as much as I long to turn my eyes down, I do not look away, I feast upon the memory that is my body and eat at every part with both suffering and delight.

I gorge on the pain that sears from the centre and let each vein and nerve transport the tender feeling to infect every inch of my being. 

I am both the keeper and prisoner of my own mind, 

And I starve for the freedom of release and beg my own itching fingers to prevent any more of anything.

I am lost.

I give up fighting the enemy that is myself and let my enemy define me. I am lost. Forever fighting, for what is already lost.

Reviews

[Traci]

This was the first piece of yours I've read, and I was quite impressed, Nic.

"Misery empowers the mind as much as it burdens the soul."

"I am both prisoner and keeper of my own mind."

These two lines stood out the most to me. So much truth in these words, very relatable. Overall the poem had very good imagery and emotions that were heartfelt. Much more than just words. Great job! Definitely looking forward to reading more of your work, and seeing you get the recognition you deserve for this beautifully written piece.

[Nic Murray]

I was honestly so thrilled to read your review on my work, whenever I write I tend to use my own feelings to inspire the writing so it's just so nice when I hear that someone else has related to them too. I really hope that i'll be able to write many more poems that you will be able to enjoy and relate to! Thanks so much again.

[Traci]

Always my pleasure. When I read I tend to look less at the technical aspect and more at the emotional one, and the way I can connect with the writer's words. You portray your feelings in such a way that they are felt, not just read, and that is something that if oftentimes very rare. I find your words to be very thought provoking, causing me to stop after each sentence and really absorb the sentiments. I like your style of writing and am sure you will deliver many that are surely relatable to many. Again, job well done :)

[Sugar Plum ♥]

Brilliant and psychological write, reminds me of what is said to be "predestination" and faith...No one can escape from his own self and his own mind and soul...as many religion states - soul is eternal spark inside...I love the way you express your thoughts, it makes me realize the truth...Really powerful!
I am both the keeper and prisoner of my own mind,

Yes, but also I`m in the labyrinth of the choices, and decisions, which is never ending and repeating again! So I could make myself free- as much as it`s possible inside prison of the body and reality- and make my soul to be free...At least that is a choice, to not be lost.

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[Friday]

You really catch the reader's attention with a tantalizing first line and the piece holds together very well. Wonderful work!!

[Nic Murray]

thank you friday! ^-^ this is really great to hear, I am truly so thrilled you liked the poem!

[Sam Sin Sepultura]

this was absolutely beautiful, love it. keep writing :) you deserve more attention for your skills

[Nic Murray]

one of the loveliest reviews I have ever gotten, I appreciate this so unbelievably much, thank you ;)

[Sam Sin Sepultura]

no problem :) you deserve it

[Glen Yumang Manese]

I like your take on this write... but the way you have the lines here can be reworked... to give this a more lively feel to the reader... The flow is disrupted with the arrangement... seems the words are jammed together so to speak...

[Nic Murray]

thank you so much for your helpful comments I will take my structure and arrangement into more consideration in future. I wrote the poem the way that I felt my thoughts were moving so the flow worked with my feelings and the way the words were coming out of me. But, I really respect what you have said and will definitely work on making my poems better for the audience to read.

[Krista]

This is really good. The entire poem is eye catching.

[Nic Murray]

thanks so much, really lovely to hear!

[Richard]

I love that you know the form shape and smell of your sins ... really amazing this was fantastic .

[Nic Murray]

your review was just awesome, thank you so much I appreciate your words more than I can say!