7th may' 2000

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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CHAPTER- 4

 

 

7^th may' 2000

 

Dear diary

 

It was one of the hardest days of my life, because I met someone today who almost took my breath away. It was just a normal day, I was going to my home from university campus and on my way while I was walking I saw Natasha in a coffee shop. I first thought of it as a dream or some kind of hallucination but it was all real. It was the same Natasha, the one who became my best friend while I was in school and the one whom I loved…

 

And as I saw her, all of my past came right in front of my eyes. The day of our graduation when I met her the last time and how she left the city. After that, she remained in touch with me but then we both became so busy with our lives that we found it hard to be in touch. Gradually, there were fewer calls and then a time came when we used to talk only at New Year eves or at our birthdays. It's very strange but then this is what life is all about.

 

Suddenly, I also found that she was staring at me and without any delay she came over me and was really surprised to see me there. We sat there at the coffee shop and began to talk, because it was three years back when we both met and there was just so much to talk to, and to talk about.

We chatted about out school days and about our university and studies. Then came a very strange question from her side, she asked me about my relationship status, that did I found anyone or not.

 

I was silent but my heart was screaming that how can I give myself to someone else because I have already given myself to her. But then after a thought I answered her. Then I thought about the situation again. There must be some god's plan behind this incident. I mean after three years I met Natasha like that and she asked about my relationship. This was surely a vital sign and then I decided that it was the right time to tell her about my feeling which I was holding from past six years for her. I tried to regain my confidence and just thought of letting those three words out of my tongue.

 

But as soon as I was about to speak, she said something which made me still. She shared something about her life and about her relationship. She told me how she found that one guy (namely, Chad) whom she was waiting for throughout her life. Not only have that, she also told me about her wedding, yes her wedding…

She said that she came to this city for the wedding itself and then came the worst part, she insisted me to attend the ceremony which was about to happen on 22^nd may. I was constantly smiling and was trying to be happy for her, but I was actually broken from inside.

Then she greeted me and again reminded me about the wedding and walked away.

 

After some time I also came home. It was very hard for me to act that way but often in our life we have to pretend like that. Once in every life a time comes, which breaks each and every part of it…for me that time was when she told me about her wedding…

 

It was hard; I spend the entire evening sitting near the window while gazing all the stars. A part of me wanted to cry hard but there was also a part of me that was happy for her, that finally she got someone, and how finally she met the love of her life and as a friend I should be happy for her. You know, when we love someone we always want them to be happy…even when their happiness means that we are not a part of their life.

 

Love is like a beautiful red rose. Love is not just about two human bodies fulfilling their desires, but it is about meeting of two hearts at the crossroads where two souls becomes one. Love is what you feel inside for that person. Love is when you can't stop your tears falling from your eyes, when that person is away from you and every minute your heart beats only for the person you love. Love is about writing a love letter to your loved one at night in the dark and that's why I still can't stop myself from writing about her and to not to think more about her.

 

There is no doubt for the fact that I still love her. I really love her and will always do. Love is just so unconditional and innocent; it is not at all about getting your love back from someone, it is just about giving yourself and each and every part of your soul and heart to them, without any expectations…

 

I do regret that I should have told her this before but I didn't and now I can't turn back that time… when we were so close to each other. Now I know that she belongs to someone else and I have no complain over that.

 

I got a very good job, which is out of this state and I will surely go there. Not because, the job is great but because I know now that I have to start my life again…I want to go to a place where no one will care about my past or my future, I just want to live my life in that way…

 

I will just wait for 22^nd may to come, to watch her in that beautiful wedding dress…and to say my final goodbye to her...

Because, sometimes in life you just have to hold our head high, trying not to cry, to say that final goodbye…

 

 

Good night!

 

 

Reviews

[Blue Rose]

Love is like a beautiful red rose. Love is not just about two human bodies fulfilling their desires, but it is about meeting of two hearts at the crossroads where two souls becomes one. Love is what you feel inside for that person. Love is when you can't stop your tears falling from your eyes, when that person is away from you and every minute your heart beats only for the person you love. Love is about writing a love letter to your loved one at night in the dark and that's why I still can't stop myself from writing about her and to not to think more about her.


I liked this part a lot!

[Elanra]

I should have read this at home... Geeez.

the part blue rose quoted is really beautiful. I read it several times and with each chapter, with each line, with each word you place after another I am admiring your talent more. You are all I ever want to be and yet probably I can never be. You have several grammer mistakes and some writing mistakes but hell, who cares?

Should I continue, I wonder? *checks where the boss is* cool, I can cry now. ^_^

[Innocent]

Because, sometimes in life you just have to hold our head high, trying not to cry, to say that final goodbye�

Very true and very deep indeed.

[Karl]

Love is hard and it is beautiful , isnt it?

[Roxy]

Love is such a strange feeling...Its so strange...He should tell her soon how much he loves her, otherwise it would be too late.

[!!..Love..!!]

That is such a strange thing to happen, but then this is what fate is all about...