1st march' 1997

 

 

 

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CHAPTER - 3

 

 

1^st march' 1997

 

Dear Diary

 

Days passed by like seconds and I didn't realize how fast this entire year came to an end. Everything just seems like yesterday when I and my family came to this beautiful city and how I met Natasha. So many days have been passed now and they all changed me, I learned some or other thing everyday and that’s what made me who I'm today.

 

It was our graduation day today and I was still unable to believe that finally that day came about which me and my family always thought about. I went to the central hall where the entire settings were held and saw my friends waiting for me, with Natasha. It was a very special and emotional moment for all of us, especially for me and Natasha as we were walking through some corridors and classes, on which we may never walk again in future. Every corner was reminding us of some or other memory which we both had.

 

Finally, we all settled down and I also saw my mom who came to see me, I knew that she would be there because it was a special day not only for me, but for her too. But, I missed the presence of my dad a lot. I went to my mom and asked about him, he promised me that he would make it, but like always, he disappointed me and left me waiting for him. My mom said that he will come but I knew that she was lying.

 

Entire ceremony went great; I was continuously watching Natasha all the time because I was afraid that it could be the last time when I would be watching her like that. Our head of department called her name and she went on stage to get her degree. As always, she was carrying herself in just the best way and was making me more and more proud for whom she is…

 

After that, we all went to Jim's home to spend some more time with each other. I always saw and heard from many people that how emotionally sad this day could be and I always used to think, that there isn't any reason to be so sad on this day, because it is also a phase of life and sooner or later , it needs to come  in our life. But now, when this day came in my life, I realized how hard it is to face this very day when you no longer wants to grow and to move ahead in your life but the irony is that we all have to…

 

We all talked a lot, almost about everything. From school and past memories to our future plans. Almost all us have planned to go and opt different directions and even though we all committed that we will stay in touch with each other but in reality, we all know how future would be like and it would be very hard for us to be in touch with everyone.

 

Then, I saw Natasha and a tear shined in her blue eyes which made me sad like an unfinished story. She then said that tomorrow morning only, she will leave out of city and to a different university while I would be leaving next week to south. I never thought that this day will also come with a terrible plan like this which will tear apart both of so badly.

 

I thought that it could be the last time when I was talking to Natasha like that, who knows what future has planned for us. I gathered all of my courage and really thought of telling Natasha how much I love her because then she could leave from my life for always. But then as soon as I was about to tell her, Tina came in between our conversation and asked Natasha to help her over something. I was just sitting there with tears in my heart, watching only and only Natasha and was trying so hard to capture each and every second which I was spending with her…

 

Finally, we all went to our homes. I asked Natasha to drop her home but then she refused and said that she had some pre planned work with Tina. So, I left the space silently, with a silence in my heart which was actually speaking a lot. She said "Good night" to me and I did the same and then walked home.

 

As soon as I came home, I found my father with a big apology since he was not able to make it on my big day, I did nothing but silently accepted his apology since now I'm in a habit of that. My father then hugged me and again said "sorry", and in return I did something which I never ever did in my life. On his shoulders, I cried...

 

I never thought that I could ever be so emotionally weak, but this one girl really made me feel so hollow, as if I was left with nothing.

We should never give our every thing to just one person, because when they leave from our life…they leave us with nothingness...and that's exactly what she did with me.

 

I don't know what will I do or where would I go, but I will always be thankful to God for giving me a chance to know a person like Natasha in my life…

 

I don't know how my future will be but I do know one thing that Natasha will no longer be a part of it…

 

I don't know, may be one day we will meet again somewhere…or maybe not…I guess… its all upto fate!

 

 

Good night!

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Elanra]

"But now, when this day came in my life, I realized how hard it is to face this very day when you NO LONGER WANT TO GROW AND TO MOVE AHEAD IN YOUR LIFE but the irony is that we all have to�"

excellent line... perfect.

"I was just sitting there with TEARS IN MY HEART, watching only and only Natasha and was trying so hard to capture each and every second which I was spending with her�"

to be able to describe this u must have felt it... u know it.

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Oh my God... this made me cry... Crap, crying at work, I hope my boss wont see this. I dont know what to say.

You may be one of the best writers I know.

[Blue Rose]

Very intimating and beautiful

[Innocent]

I don't know how my future will be but I do know one thing that Natasha will no longer be a part of it�



I don't know, may be one day we will meet again somewhere�or maybe not�I guess� its all upto fate!


This was very beautiful

[Karl]

This was sad man L(

[Roxy]

Ah! That was sad ..

[!!..Love..!!]

I don't know, may be one day we will meet again somewhere�or maybe not�I guess� its all upto fate!

That was sad :(