Twenty-forth of December

 

 

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Twenty-forth of December

 

 

The most painful thing in this world is not when the person whom you love, doesn’t loves you back, it is neither when the person whom you love, loves someone else.

But the most painful thing in this world is when the person whom you love dies helplessly in your arms and right in front of your eyes.

 

 

Two hard years have been passed now but for me, it just seems like yesterday. Every morning after waking up, her memories are the first thought which comes in my mind.  Often I think that her call will come to remind me about some important occasion or date. Sometimes I can even hear her voice calling me, I don’t know why but I can still feel her with me. But no one believes me, some people even say that I’m going out of mind, it just can’t be true, and she is no more here with me. But they don’t know one thing that she is still alive here, inside of me.

 

 

 

Two hard years have been passed now but for me, it just seems like as if time had stood still. I was there in the hospital sitting just near her, touching her hand. Suddenly, she opened her eyes abruptly and held one of her hands tightly to me, and one to her sister. Her sister asked if she was alright or not and she nodded her head innocently, but still she went to call the doctor. Gradually both of her hands held mine tightly and her nails even began to embed in my skin. I asked her “Are you alright?” but she left numb and after a silence of few seconds she said “I’m sorry…” , and then tears started to fall out her eyes. We were continuously looking to each other with endless tears which were flowing out of our eyes and our hearts. There was just something in her eyes at that time which I can’t explain in words, they wanted to say something which words can’t describe. It was the first time in my life when I found myself so helpless.

Finally, the doctor came and checked her, after a minute he said “I’m sorry for your loss…But she is no more…”

 

 

 

 

 

Two hard years have been passed now but, I’m still waiting for a new year to come. I was a party animal and used to party all night long specially on the occasion of New Year. But now, I’m no more that person and I know I can’t be back again. Every holiday I watch people celebrating Christmas and New Year, decorating their homes and buying gifts for each other. Yes, I also do the same but genuinely I no more feel that spirit here inside of me. I exchange gifts and greet everyone just to let them know that I’m perfectly alright without her but they just don’t know one thing that I’m so much broken and hollow from inside. Since some people who have so much of pain and sorrow inside of their hearts, that no Christmas or New Year can bring joy back to them.

 

 

 

Two hard years have been passed now and… I have started to smile once again. The time when she left me, an entire world of sadness crashed over me and that sadness completely changed me. It sucked the real person from right inside of me and made me who I’m today. I first began to hate this sadness but then I realized that I can’t beat it and then I started to live with it. And you know! When you are always surrounded by sadness from everywhere, a time comes when you will began to love that sadness and that is the best way to come out of it. I don’t cry from outside anymore, but inside of me there is such a huge ocean of sadness which can sink even the biggest ship of happiness.

 

Two hard years have been passed now,

And I’m still not making any sense.

The only reason for which I’m still alive is that -

It’s your blood which is flowing inside of my veins.

 

Author's Note

This is one of those pieces, which are so personal that I as such can't put them here...But I just don't know why I have published it here! Lolz.....

May be because now, after 2 years....I'm getting out of it...or may be not, I just don't know!

Reviews

[LlamaLord]

Wow... this is so powerful. Such emotion was grasped in this, it's hard to loosen the grip. The lines I've read before in your other work, but in this, they are all summed into a huge compilation.

"I exchange gifts and greet everyone just to let them know that I'm perfectly alright without her but they just don't know one thing that I'm so much broken and hollow from inside."

That is the sentence that had me at tears. We all know what it's like to simply, feel left out. But what you were feeling, was true sadness. No one knows how many emotions are dwelling, because sometimes we hide them. Losing someone close seemingly, makes your world stop, and makes you realize just how vulnerable you have been all along. Thanks for this. I'm sure this will bring realization to many, and not just me.

Peace to you and merry Christmas!
-Austin

[Ravenskald]

:)
I have little to say
Except the Doctor was wrong
She is always alive in your heart ...
I hope you don't get out of it
That you just see it differently

I am a romantic fool and believe that Love like truth is Eternal

Raven

[Blue Rose]

I agree with my fellow reviews that this in really one of the most finest pieces of writing I have ever read. Few lines were so emotionally strong that they simply nailed in inside my heart. I loved the last 4 lines which gave a sort of look as a prose. The pictures are also so "picture perfect". This is wonderful Bhavya, I pray you will have a better year now.

[Roxy]

This is hilarious Bhavya, I mean I cant decribe the feeling which I got after reading it. At once instance I actually stopped reading since it was hard for me to handle them.This is awesome!

[Golden]

One of the most finest piece of writing I have ever read so far.

[Rain]

This was a beautiful tribute, one that all of us know, That is why the Holidays are so sad to some people. They are a time
of family and tradition. Your poem speaks for many. Beautiful. Rain..

[Blackbeats]

I have never read something more emotional and sad than this in my life yet, This is so sad man.

[!!..Love..!!]

You know, this is such a wonderful conclusion of your last two years. You have gone through a lot of pain and suffering but seems like your real new year have came now. You are ready to move on dear. Yet, she will always remain alive in your heart but you need to carry on , I know its very hard but you can't belike this.
Pictures in this are speaking for themselves. This is one of the most sad and beautiful work I have ever read here in WC. Since I really cried after reading it T-T

[Amanda]

oh, Bhavya...i feel for you and the loss of someone that was very important to you, but it is true that she will ALWAYS be with you. though it is said that time heal all wounds, i don't really believe that. all time does is lessen the pain felt at the time. you have to want for the sadness and the pain to subside. it never really goes away.

you have done well to use your writing as an outlet for your pain. your poetry is sad, sweet and beautiful....this one is no exception. i think that you are ready to move on with your life, but i know that you will never forget your special someone. she will always be in your heart.

nicely done, my friend :)

A xox