Sea of Fear

a song about dealing with my panic disorder.

a thousand stones are thrown

at me, through me, right to me

As I lay on the ground

they start to surround

crushing my chest until I cannot breathe

until I cannot see

my heart is racing

my palms are sweaty

if only I could find

my great escape

but the sea washes up to me

and carries me away

and I am lost in its tight

persuasive sway

the tears begin to come

my mind clouded by the sun

and then it all becomes clear

I am lost

yes, I am lost

in a sea of fear

my head begins to settle now

but I can't control these shakes

I live in fear of the next one

so my life it slowly takes

its dark here in this cave

where I have reserved myself to be alone

I spend my days a peeping tom

watching others pass by

while I wither away

in my own little cave

where I know its safe

but the sea washes up to me

and carries me away

and I am lost in its tight

persuasive sway

the tears begin to come

my mind clouded by the sun

and then it all becomes clear

I am lost

yes, I am lost

in a sea of fear

and soon I realize no one is coming

so I sit down on the ground

and start humming

a familiar tune that has brought me through

many times before

and I close my eyes

and it opens the door

and the sea washes up to me

and I walk away

and I am no longer lost in its tight

persuasive sway

the tears stop coming

and I'm dried up by the sun

and then it all becomes clear

you have to find your own way out

out of this

sea of fear

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so tough to deal with this kind of thing...as i read i could hear music in the background...music with an edge to it...the kind that makes you feel a bit uncomfortable...and sooner or later there are no more tears to shed, no more pain to feel...we have to sway ourselves out of this feeling...forge ahead and try to deal our confidence a winning hand.

[M Chavan]

Beautifully written.. Describes very beautifully that there are things in life you have to overcome by yourself..
And the line ' you have to find your own way out' rightly says it all.
Thanks for sharing!

[unsavable_soul]

Nice write,
There is a darkness in this piece and I sense you feel pulled in different directions yet having no real control over where you go or what is happening to you. The sea of fear is something we can all relate to it comes in different forms per person but we all have to overcome those demons or things that drag us down. Very beautiful write, thanks for sharing it.
Chris