Feel Like ... !

30/07/2011 My bestfriend textx me saying she only likes the guy i'm madly in love with... I feel like breaking down

I'm crying,
I'm crying to myself.
My bestfriend...
She likes the guy I am madly in love with.
And yet,
The fact is,
I know he'll go for her...
She is pretty,
Her smile is beyond gorgeous.
No wonder she'd flirt,
And when she did she had no idea how much it hurt.
I am telling her to go for it,
It's what bestfriends do...?
I feel like drowning in despair,
Feel like slitting my wrists with to much to bear.
Let the glass puncture my flesh,
As the emotional pain is drawn to the physical.
I can't see properly,
I see blood and tears.
I am shakin'...
With anger,
With jealousy,
With choking pain I can't no longer contain...
I will cry by myself,
Shield myself away so simple and plain.
I feel like sleeping and not waking up.
I feel like punching something so hard my knuckles will burst,
Feel like ripping my hair out and screaming names.
Feel like jumping of the highest cliff and fly down with beauty.
I know am not beautiful,
But I believe I'm not ugly...
But he doesn't want me....
And the scariest fact I believe and may aswell be true!
He likes her to...
I feel like giving up,
I said I wouldn't quit...
But whats the point when they are crazy for eachother...
Thats what I see in my eyes