Never letting go CHAPTER 11

Alice:

 Dear Jacob

Decisions I make are usually

Decisions I make are always based

Decisions I make are always........

Signed AHHHHHHHHHH!

Ukkk! I say to my stressed self, how I can write this without being the head line of the town’s favourite news paper “Juicy judgement? Hah, really! Make me more different in this doomed world. How can I write this without knowing what to write? I replay last night several times in my lost mind, I see small ideas shrivel into ripped parches of blank paper lost of all traces of  ink (thoughts) I used to fill them so effortlessly with. I remember it so clearly in fact I know it better than the French alphabet I learned 50 years ago! Here is how it all occurred so swiftly yet seemed longer than 1 thousand years in hell.

I fell to the floor that was carpeted with golden and rusty coloured leaves, as I fell; the skies seemed to darken into a black hole that gestured you in so it could swallow you whole. The happiness was ripped away from me then torn endlessly into pieces of black horror. Everything changed, the way I used to awaken to the dreary, consistent rain thinking “Aren’t I lucky to be here with my darling?” Now I had no darling? Now he lay before me lifeless and gone, he was gone and he’d never return, I’d never again see his hazel eyes that were flecked with grey spots and full of golden tinges and cinnamon edges, but when he kissed me his  eyes of melted gold turned to an shimmering emerald with cast of blue. However my favourite was always when we were more intimate and the turned to a deep Paris green filled with love and I swear if I was an artist I’d steal the colour and paint my finest work with it! As I turned away from the shards that now embedded themselves in the think bark of the trees and moist grass I gazed into someone whom I’d never liked, someone with no significant part in my existence. Someone whose eyes were filled with confusion yet overflowing with love and compassion! Those eyes had something warm and luring about them. I’d describe them as soulful chestnut brown eyes..... But could his warm eyes fill my loved ones. Jasper lay helpless and transparent on the hard ground and I tried to scream, honestly I tried to grab him and pray he’d come back but I was frozen in disbelief when something tugged my icy heart and I mechanically turned to the man I would spend the rest of my life with, or was supposed too!

Now my world was spinning and my head ached endlessly, how can I move on? How can a were wolf love a vampire? How could he ask to marry me? He is 16! I began shaking my head uncontrollably again when I realised people say “ no matter how many relationships you’re in, it won’t feel right till your with the one whom imprints on you” (Bella had told me that, not that she knew). It never felt wrong with Jasper, I never felt like a glass half empty, but what about a glass half  full. Maybe it was time to wake up ???!

 

Jacob:

Ohh! You are a dog man! One of the wolves thought, obviously directing it to me!

Wow Jacob going for a big year aren’we? Vampire wife and Alpha another wolf yelled in my head and howled with laughter

I didn’t find it funny; I sent them away mortified with their vampire sex jokes and their marriage talk. In my head I wanted rejection, sour bitter rejection like the way Bella had reacted to my affection. But in my heart/instinct wanted/hungered for the ice cold statue to lay her cold hands on my body and kiss my lips. I couldn’t take it, I was going to explain how I felt for her and hope for...... wait what was it I hoped for?

Edward:

Hmm this was a peculiar situation, I thought  he had initially come to kill her but imprinted the second she lost her husband. I didn’t know how I felt...

1 He would now be over Bella and Alice wouldn’t be lonely (if she says yes)

2 I cannot bear to live with a DOG, well actually an Alpha with all his mutts to follow him!

At least I wouldn’t be waiting long, I heard Jacob’s unsteady footsteps, uneven breaths and very unconfident thoughts. Alice wouldn’t know he was coming due to his on-the-spot decision.

Anyway I saw it all go down, Carlisle opened the modern door and led Jacob into the sitting room the called Alice in who wasn’t sure what to say.

I heard Jacob speaking first well more a whispering.

 “ Alice I know it’s sudden and I should be a gentleman and wait after your lose but I can’t, I am not much of a romancer but I know that this is more than love because when I think about you it’s no longer butterflies flittering and joy realising from me. It’s enormous eagles taking flight and relief overflowing out of me because I finally have what I’m looking for. Bella and I were something she was my everything but when I think of you I can go on without her but not without you. You don’t have to marry me but honey if  you feel the same, because I know the imprint must have given you a different perspective on me then just try it, date me or talk to me please be with me.....” It turned into a slow babbling end and then a long silent pause.

“ Jake, I do feel something for you but for Jasper it was different.......... better” Alice slowed the ending as I heard Jacob think about crying.

“ I think it best you leave,” Alice took his hand and led him to the door but suddenly he turned and wrapped himself around her like a vine coiling its way up the trees.

Alice:

He pulled me close and I know I am a cold icicles but I felt his heat radiate into me as his muscled arms tightened on to the back of neck and gripped me closer. Our lips moved in one synchronized motion and I found my arms pull him closer when he backed away. The kiss continued for several minutes and the soft, caressing kiss turned into pleading snog like this was the last time we’d ever do it. At that thought my heart sank and I realised that I was never letting him go..........

 

 

Reviews

[bethany cullen]

thank you x

[Summer'sBreeze]

wow
so umm JASPER is dead!
and this new twist to the story is interesting XD
can't wait to read more

[bethany cullen]

awwwwwwww... okay well let me know about jacob and alice and I can consider it in the next chapter :)

[Alana McGuire]

This is quite interesting with the different fonts and different perspectives. There were spelling mistakes that I noticed, but I wasn't sure if you wanted me to list them or not. And I'm still not sure how I feel about Alice and Jacob. Hahah but it's creative at least. :)