blackout

i like to turn the music up loud
let each beat be a breath
feel the walls shake
and vibrations from the floor up to my mind
head pounding in time
forget why i was crying
or laughing
and just let the emotion roll around
every nerve and cell
jump until my feet bleed
then collapse in a heap
and succumb to the darkness
hair sticking to my neck
and clothing to my back
it doesn't matter what the song is about
just noise to block out context
and blackout faces
until all i am left with is a burn
a red raw heart
a broken shell
and energy
nuclear.