one year later

I was wondering how I would look at these poems after a year

I don't even remember the pain

I had forgotten what my own song that stuck with me for a year

 a lot can change in a year 

And now you are just a few words that stuck with me while washing dishes

 I hated you

 I forgave you

 Sometimes we saw each other on the street and smile

 Sometimes we changed paths

We continued our lives by hearing about each other's lives in the same group of friends.

You are now a few high school memories in my life

A few songs I haven't listened to

A few tears

Sometimes the reason I laugh

Sometimes anger

You are now just a shadow from my past

You are that movie I used to love but don't remember anymore

You are like the words of books that I underlined and forgot

You were once precious

I look at the titles of my old poems and think "damn it, what could he have done to me to make me so angry"

Then as I read the poem it comes to mind

I haven't written angry poems about people I wanted to forgive after you

I had to remember that I couldn't forgive you enough to not go back

I forgot each other's jokes

I don't remember the songs we listened to together

I went to the places we went together with other people

I even realized that I forgot who bought the gifts you bought me

At first I thought there was no one else who could understand me

We were both young and learning about life

We probably won't forgive each other until we both find our true love.

or we will forget when we don't remember the promise we made for 40

I'm happy you broke my heart

I wouldn't want it to be anyone else

Honestly, I forced myself to write this poem because

 I forgot to write a poem to you to the point of not feeling it.

Our friends are inviting us to play poker.

 Since they invited me, you are not there. 

Our life goes on even better.