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It's about managing your life by the words of others. simple.

a stranger on the internet told me he hates me and i've never been online again

stopped eating and sleeping

then sleeping became the only thing i have

one of my friends blocked me for no reason

so i yelled at to her on the hallways

and sold my own rightful story before she left the school

a lover stopped texting me and i cried for days

My circle of friends got angry at me 

for thinking that a stupid teenage boy was the love of my life

a relative called me callous because I didn't cry at a funeral

and thought it would be good gossip material to judge me for months

I didn't even have the strength to explain anything to her, 

so I kept quiet with empty red eyes

They said I was stuck in the past 

because I wanted to go to my father's grave on a random Tuesday

So I've never talked about my father again.

and my therapist said i can't runaway from my family

so i stayed there

I got caught crying in the bathroom and they made me shut

I tried to hold my breath but one sob caused me 5000 insults.

They got mad because I ate

I made myself throw up 12 times in one day

So i stopped eating again

and they said i dont have any self respect

and i believed that

They were more interested in what color I was

My gender and age

Not what I want

or who am i in my heart

Am I only what I look like?

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

Hard though it might seem but IGNORE the idiots who have nothing better to do with their boring little lives than bully and hurt others. They don't deserve an iota of your precious and talented time. You'll find plenty of good people willing to stand with you, be sure of that. HUG AND SMILE.

[Beren]

ah thank you so much for being supportive all the time!!! you are so kind! thanks for your time

[emmajoygreen]

I'm more than glad to support you and any other person other who is insulted by idiots. Block them.

[andrew mitchell]

People who want to stay in your life will always find a way or time to be with you. Protect yourself and people are entitled to their opinions and so are you.

[Beren]

You can never imagine how much I needed this... right right right. Thank you sir! A big thank you

[Gee]

Surround yourself with folk you love and who love you back no matter what. The world is full of arseholes that glory in putting others down..
In some ways you are lucky that you have your writing, which is good by the way, to let off steam, express your feelings.

[Beren]

Ah telling me that I'm lucky cause I have my writings... means a lot to me. We all lucky in here!!!
Thank you so much for reading and taking time to comment! Take care!

[keith]

they are a problem
always have been always will attempt to become one
you have good passion within your words
thanks

[Beren]

Wow. Thank you so much it really means a lot to me your comments.
Thank you for reading and care enough to comment!
Wishing you a great week

[Tumi]

Your poem makes me think of myself,
People don't like me, dey underestimate me, and they say a lot of bad things, it made me hate school for sometime,
I tried to be who they wanted me to be,
But it made me worse

Now I just don't mind the trolls, the harsh words, I'd just smile and cage the pain,

I learnt now to be myself and not others be the judge, I do what I think is right in my heart, never bad,

Now maybe they'd admire me for being just nice

[Beren]

You are doing great. I proud of you. And i will take it as a compliment that my poem makes you think of yourself. I am glad you don’t care about them anymore and follow your own heart!!!
Thank you for reading and paying attention to comment!

[Fabian G. Franklin]

It's your life. It doesn't belong to anyone else. Live it your way by your standards and your beliefs. This person sounds like they are emotionally crushed by any criticism or denigration. I raised my girls with constant constructive criticism and praise in equal measure. Good behavior deserves recognition and reward as much as bad behavior deserves our notice and disdain. But my kids are never going to be "hurt" by insults or their critics. They have learned to answer well for themselves and grown strong in self-confidence because I wasn't ever raising "kids". I was raising responsible adults "from" kids. My job is to raise them until they don't need my help and are capable of tackling life's problems on their own. That's my belief.

[Beren]

You are absolutely right. One of the most accurate views I have ever heard. When you stop taking people's opinions personally and stop judging people's lives and choices, I think your frequency definitely changes. This person hasn't lived my life for even 5 minutes, so they have no right to criticize me; likewise, I haven't lived their life, so I can't judge them. My life has been easier since I came to this understanding. And I admire the way you raised your daughters, I'm sure they have become wonderful adults, and believe me, every parent messes things up, yet I think you gave them the best part.
I'm not even in my 20s yet, I'm learning about life, I'm sure I'll find a way by living it.
thank you for reading and paying attention!
hope you have a great year! i always love your reviews.

[Everett Dulin]

the world is cruel. from my experience, we just need to keep dancing.

[Beren]

show must go on, right? we will be better, keep dancing, singing, screaming and more.

[Neville]

unfortunately the world is full of such self righteous fools most of them nothing but bullies .. don't let them get to you there are plenty of much better & decent folk around .. honest .. Neville

[Beren]

We should let good people speak more. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate it.

[Neville]

You really are most welcome .. Neville 👍

[Kanwal]

"The harsh truth is, we all have people like this in our social circles. It's crucial to distance ourselves from them as soon as possible to protect our peace and well-being."

[Beren]

yes. we all have these kinda people.
thank you for your time to read

[John the Baptist]

I think you really need a new social circle.

[Beren]

damn. this hurt me so bad. you are right.