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It's about managing your life by the words of others. simple.

a stranger on the internet told me he hates me and i've never been online again

stopped eating and sleeping

then sleeping became the only thing i have

one of my friends blocked me for no reason

so i yelled at to her on the hallways

and sold my own rightful story before she left the school

a lover stopped texting me and i cried for days

My circle of friends got angry at me 

for thinking that a stupid teenage boy was the love of my life

a relative called me callous because I didn't cry at a funeral

and thought it would be good gossip material to judge me for months

I didn't even have the strength to explain anything to her, 

so I kept quiet with empty red eyes

They said I was stuck in the past 

because I wanted to go to my father's grave on a random Tuesday

So I've never talked about my father again.

and my therapist said i can't runaway from my family

so i stayed there

I got caught crying in the bathroom and they made me shut

I tried to hold my breath but one sob caused me 5000 insults.

They got mad because I ate

I made myself throw up 12 times in one day

So i stopped eating again

and they said i dont have any self respect

and i believed that

They were more interested in what color I was

My gender and age

Not what I want

or who am i in my heart

Am I only what I look like?

Reviews

[Mk.t.g]

bro stop it, you're gonna make me cry at this point. Honestly, whatever you've written is so relatable, and at some point in life, you know that you've gone thru this s**t at least once; be it insecurity, or trying to be who you are, its all like a struggle of life and death honestly, when it shouldn't be. Why should you suffer at the hands of those who are only there to fill your vessel with nothing but overflowing amounts of sadness? like people, let me live in peace, it's just one life, at least let me be who i am and let me do what i want.

ALSO LIKE TO HELL WITH THOSE WHO HARM YOUR MENTAL HEALTH OR WHO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THAT...
uhmm, yeah, your poems and your writings are so damn good, you're legit so talented. WOWOWOWOWO!!

[berenongur]

YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO GOOD!!! I'm sharing poems and i hope every time for you to comment and I got caught. NO I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL RELATABLE WITH THESE. One day I will write happiness, success and love poems here and I want you to write "yes this is relatable to me" in them AND YOU WILL. You are my favorite internet stranger COME TO YOURSELF AND STAY WELL BE HAPPY. i love you! take care have the BEST WEEK!

[Mk.t.g]

I WILL ALWAYS COMMENT DW, I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE hehehe, bro honestly, thanku for those words, SAME SAME TO U TOOOO

[John the Baptist]

I think you really need a new social circle.

[Betty Hermelee]

Only you know how big your heart is...on one else...they look at you like a perfect stranger...only you can show how big your heart is, by projecting self love to others, and pay no attention to those you hurt you..It's struggle that many of us go through...and many of us can relate to your feelings, so please give yourself a hug, thank you.
Warmly, B

[Arundass TP]

Don't believe in attachment. Detachment is safe for mental health. Let all avoid, Be brave as a mountain touching sky limit. Don't be fragile. Love is mirage.

[berenongur]

Individuality is important. Once you are committed to yourself with self-respect, you don't care about the rest. Thank you for your comment.

[Dave W.]

I understand this very well, harsh words from the ones we love can tear us apart, then there is the storm raging ont he inside, deciphering every word that was spoken, no longer seeing your self through your own eye but those who have hurt you, now this becomes the truth. I really felt this, matters of the heart are so painful.

[berenongur]

You definitely explained what I meant very well. You are a good interpreter, so I am very glad you liked my poem. Children who grow up in an environment of low self-esteem can sometimes have difficulty establishing their own identities, so they do not consider themselves as individuals. But we are all human and we are developing. We will be fine. I appreciate you taking the time to comment and read, thank you.

[Dave W.]

As I apperciated you reading and reviewing mine, I hope you have a rgeat day.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Looks, color, religion....damn the internet where people can say all kinds of hurtful things and hide behind who they aren't.
j.

[berenongur]

People only hide themselves if they are unhappy with themselves.
Thank you for your time and review sir! i am grateful!

[Exit]

Wow. This is such a deep and passionate perspective of someone who is limited and mistreated. You really give the impression that this person can never do anything right in the eyes of society. In only a few words, you make a whole vision.
Is this is about your current life, I hope your ok and that you can always talk to someone, even if you don’t know them, like an online blind text. Or talk to one of your fans.
This was a great poem. I hope you’re ok.

[Exit]

Oh wait im so sorry I forgot the 1st line maybe my advice was bad I’m soooo sorryyyy

[berenongur]

Ah, the best comments I have ever received, I am really happy. I am fine, I can share my ideas now. Thank you very much for your thoughts. There will always be people who are insensitive, thoughtless and have bad behaviors. I do not believe in the concept of good and bad people, but there will always be people who do bad things.

There will also always be people who do good things. They will listen, try to understand (which is usually enough). Life is always changing and will continue to flow. Thank you. Your time and comments are very valuable.

[berenongur]

ah you are so kind. thank you. its fine. i am okay. hope you are well too!! take care

[Vol]

Berenonger,
Hmmm sounds like emptiness to me... nothing real happens, here... possibly a perfect reflection of the current, introverted cellar denizens, blue screen reflected, dead-eyed, and pointless, living with mom and dad... what will the future call this generation?
Vol

[berenongur]

The future probably won't be here to tell this generation anything.
thank you for your time sir

[Vol]

At the rate we are going, as you so aptly describe, you are right. All art is a reflection of its time, this is no exception...

[Glenda]

Words are POWERFUL. We have to remember to put on the "whole" armor of God.
Do you remember hearing about the girl who got so tired of the guy's texts, she told him to kill himself...and he did!
The Lord's Prayer contains every piece of armor we need. I repeat it silently because God knows our thoughts.
Yes, God already know everything. But the Bible says, "You don't have because you do not ask."
The devil wants to kill you. Suicide is a moral sin, "Thou shalt not kill" (Not even yourself!)
Awesome write! xG

[berenongur]

thank you so much for your time and for your review! take care!

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

people are a******s. ive been noticing that more and more. and it's reached a point where i now dont care and mainly isolate myself. luckily there's one or two people i can actually turn to.
i hope you find someone like that. not everyone is a monster, there are those who will understand you. but allow youself to be angry. you deserve dignity, happiness and a life.
sorry this re view has turned into a lecture (im a teacher, icant help it!). this was a strong work of confessional poetry. its full of anger and wanting. these things are not pleasurable, but it makes us human and that is worth writing about.

[berenongur]

I am so glad you expressed your anger! I love the way teachers stand up for people, teachers should speak up and thank you for your well wishes. I am sure your students are lucky to have you. I hope you will continue to teach good lessons in your life. Thank you for reading and taking the time to comment.

[Soren]

A tree is easily bent and shaped when young and green. It has to grow to become tough and strong, then no force will bend it without breaking it. However it retains the bends of its youth. A most sad and painful poem it rings out with injustice, prejudice, and anger directed at oneself resulting in self punishment for not being strong enough to stand up for oneself. Powerful

[berenongur]

"And if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow" it sharped me in a way. thank you so much for your time and attention. your thoughts means a lot to me. take care!!

[Soren]

One's blood may cleans but only if drawn by others.