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It's about managing your life by the words of others. simple.

a stranger on the internet told me he hates me and i've never been online again

stopped eating and sleeping

then sleeping became the only thing i have

one of my friends blocked me for no reason

so i yelled at to her on the hallways

and sold my own rightful story before she left the school

a lover stopped texting me and i cried for days

My circle of friends got angry at me 

for thinking that a stupid teenage boy was the love of my life

a relative called me callous because I didn't cry at a funeral

and thought it would be good gossip material to judge me for months

I didn't even have the strength to explain anything to her, 

so I kept quiet with empty red eyes

They said I was stuck in the past 

because I wanted to go to my father's grave on a random Tuesday

So I've never talked about my father again.

and my therapist said i can't runaway from my family

so i stayed there

I got caught crying in the bathroom and they made me shut

I tried to hold my breath but one sob caused me 5000 insults.

They got mad because I ate

I made myself throw up 12 times in one day

So i stopped eating again

and they said i dont have any self respect

and i believed that

They were more interested in what color I was

My gender and age

Not what I want

or who am i in my heart

Am I only what I look like?

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

Hard though it might seem but IGNORE the idiots who have nothing better to do with their boring little lives than bully and hurt others. They don't deserve an iota of your precious and talented time. You'll find plenty of good people willing to stand with you, be sure of that. HUG AND SMILE.

[berenongur]

ah thank you so much for being supportive all the time!!! you are so kind! thanks for your time

[emmajoygreen]

I'm more than glad to support you and any other person other who is insulted by idiots. Block them.

[Fabian G. Franklin]

It's your life. It doesn't belong to anyone else. Live it your way by your standards and your beliefs. This person sounds like they are emotionally crushed by any criticism or denigration. I raised my girls with constant constructive criticism and praise in equal measure. Good behavior deserves recognition and reward as much as bad behavior deserves our notice and disdain. But my kids are never going to be "hurt" by insults or their critics. They have learned to answer well for themselves and grown strong in self-confidence because I wasn't ever raising "kids". I was raising responsible adults "from" kids. My job is to raise them until they don't need my help and are capable of tackling life's problems on their own. That's my belief.

[berenongur]

You are absolutely right. One of the most accurate views I have ever heard. When you stop taking people's opinions personally and stop judging people's lives and choices, I think your frequency definitely changes. This person hasn't lived my life for even 5 minutes, so they have no right to criticize me; likewise, I haven't lived their life, so I can't judge them. My life has been easier since I came to this understanding. And I admire the way you raised your daughters, I'm sure they have become wonderful adults, and believe me, every parent messes things up, yet I think you gave them the best part.
I'm not even in my 20s yet, I'm learning about life, I'm sure I'll find a way by living it.
thank you for reading and paying attention!
hope you have a great year! i always love your reviews.

[Everett Dulin]

the world is cruel. from my experience, we just need to keep dancing.

[berenongur]

show must go on, right? we will be better, keep dancing, singing, screaming and more.

[Neville]

unfortunately the world is full of such self righteous fools most of them nothing but bullies .. don't let them get to you there are plenty of much better & decent folk around .. honest .. Neville

[berenongur]

We should let good people speak more. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate it.

[Neville]

You really are most welcome .. Neville 👍

[Kanwal]

"The harsh truth is, we all have people like this in our social circles. It's crucial to distance ourselves from them as soon as possible to protect our peace and well-being."

[berenongur]

yes. we all have these kinda people.
thank you for your time to read

[John the Baptist]

I think you really need a new social circle.

[berenongur]

damn. this hurt me so bad. you are right.

[Betty Hermelee]

Only you know how big your heart is...on one else...they look at you like a perfect stranger...only you can show how big your heart is, by projecting self love to others, and pay no attention to those you hurt you..It's struggle that many of us go through...and many of us can relate to your feelings, so please give yourself a hug, thank you.
Warmly, B

[berenongur]

ah, why are you the sweetest!!! yes yes yes you are so right. i will learn. thank you so much dearest Betty! you are always so kind! take care of yourself! you deserve the best hug!

[Betty Hermelee]

Thank you for your excellent writing and trusting me to review your work
Warmly, B🌷

[Arundass TP]

Don't believe in attachment. Detachment is safe for mental health. Let all avoid, Be brave as a mountain touching sky limit. Don't be fragile. Love is mirage.

[berenongur]

Individuality is important. Once you are committed to yourself with self-respect, you don't care about the rest. Thank you for your comment.

[Dave W.]

I understand this very well, harsh words from the ones we love can tear us apart, then there is the storm raging ont he inside, deciphering every word that was spoken, no longer seeing your self through your own eye but those who have hurt you, now this becomes the truth. I really felt this, matters of the heart are so painful.

[berenongur]

You definitely explained what I meant very well. You are a good interpreter, so I am very glad you liked my poem. Children who grow up in an environment of low self-esteem can sometimes have difficulty establishing their own identities, so they do not consider themselves as individuals. But we are all human and we are developing. We will be fine. I appreciate you taking the time to comment and read, thank you.

[Dave W.]

As I apperciated you reading and reviewing mine, I hope you have a rgeat day.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Looks, color, religion....damn the internet where people can say all kinds of hurtful things and hide behind who they aren't.
j.

[berenongur]

People only hide themselves if they are unhappy with themselves.
Thank you for your time and review sir! i am grateful!