time

If you look back on your life and feel like you're an idiot, here's what I wrote. Still, life is better than ever.

I found a poem I wrote 6 months ago

It's start with "How can I ever love again?"

Then 3 months later I found myself on a date

It took 3 months and it was harsh

But It was way better than the old one

We broke up one week ago but

I learned I can love better

I found a song I listened last year

It was on my "all time favorites" list

But now I don't remember the song's artist

Or what was I thinking or dreaming while listening

I found a message from 5 months ago

It says "I will never date with a Pisces again"

Guess Universe's sense of humor is bad

Anyway I guess you can imagine what later happened

One of my ex friends texted me other day

"Do you remember what happened on last May?"

I was in hospital cause of my attempting to leave everything away

That's how life is working and it's not easy

You are just so young and don't get so dizzy

There are so many things I'll swore and still do it again

A lot can happen in just a random Sunday

But you crying over a dude who is probably gay

But still okay, he have time to accept and admit himself

2 months ago I thought I'll pack my things to go to college

Then some random night I found myself on Deutschland

Had the best time without the Uncle Sam

"Ah close your ears we are going to Amsterdam"

In his pocket when I saw a diamond ring

I thought we were gonna marry someday in Spring

But he ended everything in less than a blink

I called my best friend to say I got kicked out of the house

She said we can't see each other anymore cause of her cheater spouse

I knew she would leave me for her own family

But I still screamed "WE WERE TOGETHER SINCE THE ACADEMY."

I thought I couldn't breathe turns out that place was smelling really bad

I thought there was a problem cause I can't remember my past

Then I made a mistake like reading my old cast

Turns out my brain is helping me to leave it all fast

Now I'm needy and lonely more than ever

And Pisces left me cause he don't want a lover

But it's okay he left good lessons too

Which he was my favorite in all the blue

Now I don't have any money or a job

But I'm too honest to rob a bank

And I feel like if I ask for a loan,

There won't be no one I talk

I found a picture from my past

And she deserved the best of bests

I feel like a clown no one laughs at

But I know I will find a way to smile again

Reviews

[Marie]

Our journey through life is a very long and hazardous one. So many things can happen to cause unhappiness, but time is a great healer and the older we get the more we know that to be true and one day you will find that you have the biggest smile on your face, because you have found your one and only. Right now, concentrate on your studies, find a part time job to help financially and stop looking for love, then one day love will surprise you. You will kiss many frogs before one turns into your Prince! He will be well worth waiting for. Once you enjoy good health, that is the most important thing, the rest will fall into place when the time is right. Finely penned, I enjoyed the journey with you on part of the road of life. Thank you for sharing, Berenonur! Hold your head up high, be proud of YOU!

[berenongur]

ahh im gonna cry but cause of happiness this time. you are such a sweel soul cause you take care of people's feelings(and not a lot of people have that) searching for love its not about a guy, its about loving yourself more. and your comment made me motivated to study harder. i will. love is not something to chase already, love is all around of us. i love you thank you so much for every word

[Marie]

Most welcome, Berenongur. One must learn to love themselves first, before they can love another person, your words are so true. I am delighted you will study harder and carve out a niche for yourself in the line of work you would like to do, once you qualify. Yes, love is all around us and more than that, love is within us. We are beings of light and love wrapped in a blanket of flesh! Sending beautiful Angel Blessings your way, with love to you too. Wishing you a very nice day filled with great joy, beautiful sunshine, good health, happiness - enjoy, dear Berenongur...

[Ken Simm.]

Interesting travel through views and memories on and of so many things. This verges on the epic and that is no bad thing.

[Thomas W Case]

Beautiful work. Powerful and poignant.

[berenongur]

thank you so much sir

[fallon]

There is a novel in this poem. Once you do find love, I hear the key to a long love is a short memory, so one day your ability to forget and move on might help! You portray that endless cycle of searching for love so well. I enjoyed reading it.

[berenongur]

thank you so muchh it really matters

[tumi]

too poignant too too poignat, heartbreaks, pains and agony well depicted
the feelings emotions well written
and i feel its real
like so sad,
very good

[berenongur]

ahh thank you so so much, i love your work. this matters a lot

[red93]

Very nice Work and I like the clever phrasing and referencing in this Piece. Excellent ✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

[berenongur]

thank you for your thoughts. have the best day

[Arundass TP]

I learned I can love better

Sure, love is like a bubble. Don't make it burst. Nicely written

[berenongur]

thank you so much sir. stay with real love

[Arundass TP]

Sure friend. Welcome

[Betty Hermelee]

Keep breathing...this is a very honest poem about disappointment and where your life takes you...never give up, because there will another love in your pathway.....you just have to keep your head up and keep moving til you find the right one.... thanks for sharing!
Warmly, B

[berenongur]

Sometimes I like to write directly like storytelling rather than mixing emotions like classical poems. Sometimes what happens is just honest. Thank you for your support. It's normal to fall down but getting back up is living

[Lydia Shutter]

We all are forever changing. A food you enjoy today may make your stomach turn in a year. Always trust yourself. You will breathe, love, be yourself again. Such honest emotions here. Lydi**

[berenongur]

It can be challenging sometimes that everything is so unpredictable and can change so quickly. But life is about new experiences, right? I liked your analogy and for some reason it's a description that can help me get through it. Thank you for reading. have the best day

[Soren]

You will find a way to smile again. Relationships that break up that way are better than when they last for twenty or thirty years and break up. Enjoyed the read

[berenongur]

ah thank god for that. its really scary to break up with someone after all those years. thank you for reading