dearest diary,

For I am cold but not from the shivering winds of the fall weather but from the chills of him around. I wish to affect him as he has affected me. He makes my heart race one minute and skips a beat the next. He makes me lightheaded yet as still as a stepping stone. I’m not sure how to explain to him how I feel but yet I hope he feels the same. I hope he understands the ache in my heart is not from his but rather his absence. For no longer do I always have to hold the burdens of the world on me for I have him to help me up when I have fallen hard. To hold me when I’m scared should I be worried or should I take a chance and trust my heart more than my mind?