Pain

Wait for me few minutes more, please don't leave me alone
I am dying from all this loneliness, it's killing me from inside
I am taking a slow poison through my throat voluntary but not wished
and the death awarded is not a silent one
it's painful it's miserable it like stabbing knife one after the other awarding pain but not killing me
I am dying everyday
everyday life find a new way to kill me while letting me to live
It stab me with such a Precision that only awards me with a grieving pain, pain that can't be handle
but not letting me die but just close enough
close enough to not kill me swiftly
He let me heal he let my scar dry before
taking one new strike toward me
those knife travel deep in my body
Wounding each and every part of it
and you say I Can Heal but how?
if every now and then I am being stabbed in a different way with the different intensity
every blow is making me move toward my end
but very slowly end that I don't wishfor.
It's not a happy nor exhilarating
its just painful which now defines me