Me part 1

Me poem in parts. Different aspects of who I am

Who I am is different from what you see
I'm awkward 
I'm timid
I'm even shy.
But when you get to know me
I'm silly
I'm caring
And I'm involved more in your life
I will show you what a true friend can be
But yet I have a hard time keeping people close
For I can't trust everyone.
And because I know that nothing last forever.
Some are acquaintances 
Some are real friends
Some are the people I'm cordial but keep at a distance.
I know what I need
And the person I am. 
But I still don't understand
Why am I the way I am? 
Why can't I let go?
Why must I over think it all?
Sometimes
I wish I wasn't me 
But I think about things that have happened to me
And I thank my judgment everyday. 
For I'm safe for another day.
But what would it be like to be the social butterfly
To continue from "hello", "how are you?"
To know the things to say and be close to all
My pixie instinct would be the fall
To never make me that person I think about being
For that is not me
Safety and protection 
Keep myself living each day. 

Author's Note

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