Strangled

Pain. Hope someone feels this. If you are going through something similar; you're not alone

For once in my life 
I see
What it's like for a man to lay hands on me
For what I thought was for pleasure 
Turned into something more
The hatred in your eyes
The pain you love to conflict 
When you see me give in is when you let go
But momma didn't raise a quitter
So you conflict and conflict
Blood coughs
From forced strangle's
I don't feel good
Bruised up 
Broken down
Why am I continuing in this rut?
Why do I love you so much? 
Bi-polar disorder can't be the blame of this all.
You're more then something medically given to you
And I know this isn't the type of person you are.
Yeah we fight
But their was once a certain point as well 
Boundaries we understood
And never failed to follow
Your just changing
But I don't think I can proceed with this change
I'm drained for all the anger I contain
Numb barely walking. 
Cause you ain't the only one fighting me
My mental state is just all over the place
Ana hold's close to my body and mind.
Then you do this number rate and it makes me feel all over the place
Not good enough 
Failure
I'm going to sleep.
Thanks for messing me up more.
Thank you me for being so naive 

Author's Note

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