A poem of myself

I find myself

Wondering whats happening to myself day by day

Why I'm the way I am

I'm not the same as I was back then

Not in a bad way 

But in a way that I've lost myself 

Food terrifies me

Sleep barely calls to me

Pot in my energy

Coffee is my kryptonite 

What is wrong with me?!

I'm feared with what is inside of me

My heart with good intention and so is my mind

But only for others

Not for myself

Cause there are times that i simply don't care if I die,.

My mind wanders to the past

But I've "grown" from that

Yes I have

But the damage is permanent 

I will seem happy and vibrant in my vibes towards you

But inside holds a sad girl 

With loneliness in her heart. 

I need out

Please let me out

"I hate you"

"You're a failure"

"You'll never be good enough"

Stop

Stop

Stop

STOP

I need away from this horrid place.

Author's Note

What do you think?