The death of the BuddhaA Poem by xeroxcandybarThe death of the Buddha
whose life I have lived vicariously. He has sat there in his
primus position atop scriptures of borrowed books . For a long time now I have
tried to build a kinship bridge between him and I. I have tried to emulate him
with every strategic clime up his Bow tree, but have instead crippled myself
into a tortured midget bonsai. My leaves looking down at
texts and the rotten dead footprints others have left behind. Instead of leaning
into the sound of the wind so that the sky can send the birds singing to my
extended finger branches. Instead of digging my
rooted feet into the ground, to be welcomed by the base of my foundation home
in the earth. His death arrived one
August morning upon the realisation of my subtle follies. I might as well have taken up the wooden cross
and practice the art of the gruesome Crossianity, I mean Christianity,in the
hopes of one day becoming a martyr Christ. These are old and stale tropes
which have nothing to do with me. I looked at him, sitting
there all dharmatic, supremely sublime , picked him up from his
books like a ceramic baby, ran laughing and giddy like a little girl, and sent him crashing onto
a domestic asphalt into unrecognisable dimensions, worlds that I have tried to
conquer and terraform but whose atmosphere were never mine and we
were rendered incompatible. Hence this suffocation. Hence this conquistador
ego. This grappling with dissatisfaction. © 2012 xeroxcandybar |
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Added on April 18, 2012 Last Updated on April 18, 2012 AuthorxeroxcandybarGrahamstown, none, South AfricaAboutEternal student, embryonic lover, an ignorant fool. more..Writing
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