Through Sober Eyes

for whom I cannot change

She stares at me with empty eyes,
tilts the bottle back,
and swallows her pride.
She forces a smile.
She's so good at telling lies,
one after another,
building a wall.
She needs something to hide behind.

One more day just passes by.
One more reason to deny.
One more chance to face
the demons she's been running from.
One more promise that she'll make.
One more promise that she'll break.
One more lie she'll tell
to make up for what she'll never be.

She can't remember yesterday,
tilts the bottle back
as soon as she wakes,
something to stop the shakes.
Wish there was something i could say,
but she learned it all
from my own mistakes,
because I did the same thing every day.

She says she dont know how to change.
And then I'm filled with so much shame
when she reminds me
everyday that I'm the one to blame.
So I watch her as she drinks,
and I dont know what to think,
because I see myself
with every goddamned drink that she takes.

She's not trying to recover.
What's the point in facing the pain
when its easier running away.
She dont need another lover.
Alcohol gives her everything
till theres nothing left for me to offer.

She's not trying to recover.
What's the point in loving herself
when she's somebody else
every day
Maybe someday she'll discover
how everything is perfect and new
when she finally see's through

sober eyes

Reviews

[Markymark]

I wouldn't call this beautiful, as the other reviewer did. I would call it creative, revealing, startling, sad, or well-penned; but there's little I find beautiful about a drunk. No, I'm not talking about the binge drinker who ties one on. I'm talking about the one who get consumed until ashes are all that's left of a life. I like the fact that you make us see the humanity of addiction. You also are not afraid to show us the naked truth of just how consuming an addiction is. Loved the message and the talent to create this.

Kudos--

Mark

[DeathByChoice]

This was absolutely beautiful! The emotions in this poem are so real and overwhelming, I almost feel like I am the person going through this and thinking these thoughts! The flow was nice and no better words could have been picked. Great job!