Unspoken Gratitude

A Poem by beezle

to you who cared enough to show it

Today I found out that some people still care
and somehow I believe in the feelings they'd shared,
even though I'd assumed they'd rather look away,
that they're shaking their heads, that they've nothing to say.
Did they know I'd be sober? Its two weeks today
that I drank that last beer, threw the emptys away.
Then he tells me he's thinking about me each day
and my heart starts to break..I don't know what to say.
Then the next thing he says lights my soul like a candle
"God won't put on your shoulders what you can't handle."
I know he's sincere..I've taken him for granted.
God help me to water the seed that he's planted.
Someday I must thank him for being sincere
and for still having hope where I only had fear.
I will try to forget how I gave in again,
even though I knew I could not win in the end.
And the years that I've wasted preserving my pride
cause I'm so f*****g selfish..a master of lies.
So tonight I'll lay here all alone in this bed
but I won't take a drink..I believe what he said.