Yesterday

for my son's mother

 

I just wanted you to know
I never hated you
That watching as you drove away
Was the hardest thing to do.
That looking into Ryan’s eyes
Only made me feel such shame,
As years went by I’d tell myself
He’d never know my name.
It hurt so much when I found out
You’d found somebody else.
My world just came apart
And I could only blame myself.
To think you could love someone else
The way that you loved me
Erased all my self confidence,
My ability to see
How hard it must have been for you
To finally give in,
To let me go, to let me fall
Back on my face again
Now looking back I realize
This time we’ve spent apart
I’ve used to close a thousand doors
You left open in my heart

With every word you say to me
You’re reopening those doors
Revealing pieces of the love
And life we shared before
Sometimes it’s hard reliving
Sacred moments spent together
Remembering how you’d say those three words
“Always and forever”
I still can see the symbol
And sometimes it brings a tear
Cause “always and forever”
Only lasted seven years

I did not write this poem
To bring you pain in any way
I love you Kim, yet still I know 
there's no more yesterday.

 

 

Reviews

[Jasmine]

brilliant...so full of emotion and great rhyming - not at all cliched. only criticism, I don't like the capitals at the end! they defeat the point of the poem - the sadness, the gentle loss of hope....apart from that really excellent.