The curse for madness

You never know what's around the corner,

Especially when you're a kid.

I hope if you experience this,

You don't do what I did.

The first close person you lose

Is the one you'll never forget.

Though when you lost yours,

You were happy with a healthy family, I bet.

Time as a child is oh so dear.

Though through no fault of my own,

Someone turned against me,

And into the fire I was thrown.

While school was a torment,

Home life was agony,

I never said goodbye,

Then my sister was distanced from me.

What death leads to for the dead

Is really a mystery.

What I speak about here,

Though it is history,

Is not yet over.

Mental health is a complex thing

And triggers can be anything,

For some it is drink,

Others it is everything.

For my sister it was loss,

For me it was the fear.

Fear of losing her,

For to me, she is dear.

For every loss we have,

It is I who counts the cost,

With the dead coming to me

When they are lost.

They haunted me then

And they haunt me still,

Especially if I am ill.

I fear and cry and think of loss

And every night I count the cost.

Perhaps that's why I never sleep

Because I wonder what's in the darkness deep.

All the fear, devestation and loss,

Lead to something so much worse,

I went mad and stayed that way

So now I know for certain, 

I am cursed this very day.

Reviews

[Lizardo]

"The first close person you lose
Is the one you'll never forget."
Wow those lines are very true. I'm still in my young years and reading this, just kept me thinking of the future that awaits me. We do sometimes makes mistakes but sometimes Life is just to harsh on us, from their questions form like: Why does this happen to me? Sometimes bad experiences make us stronger for one great and awesome future that awaits ahead. We all fear and cry, everybody in the worlds has that.
You aren't human if you never felt scared, like James Dashner would say in the maze runner.
Good poem, it is really good. Thanks for sharing it.

[Double~Curse]

Thanks for reviewing it.