When you wake

Sit down 

Cry your heart out

Until your eyes feel heavy with sleep

Look in the mirror

Hate the body you keep

Pinch your fat between your fingers so hard

It leaves bruises, but you don’t bleed

Delude yourself, think that you can hate yourself

Because to love yourself is too deep

You’ve used concrete to fill in the holes

That threatens to tear you in two

You’ve used poison to drown out the sorrows

That threatens to consume you

But when is enough, 

enough?

Who planted these seeds of doubt

You came into this world an innocent

But somehow, you think you deserve pain

You came into this world so naive

Desperate for love and affection

You burned down the walls of your home,

 your safety

Your body is battered and bruised

What once stood tall, is shrunken down 

Ashes, to ashes, 

Dust to dust

You do what you must

To survive another day

but what will be left 

When you wake?