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I'm choking, suffocationg on

 the words get stuck in my throat

they stick to the inside,

 forming a lump

if you cut me open it'd just be a clump

of paper with words i wished i could say

I'm scared of being alone

but in my fear

 I make this come true

I isolate myself

staying away from you

I pretty myself up

just to knock it all down

self sabotage because i think that's love

I've been taught that i'm always wrong

my feelings, the way i wear my hair

it's horrible, it's ugly

how could i be so unaware?

I'm angry, raging, hitting the wall with my fists

my knuckles are bleeding

now i'm crying in fits

how did i lose control

of how i wanted my life to be

i continously put others in front of me

people pleasing until my heart is bleeding

it's got cuts on the inside from being torn

i'm so lost, 

so out of control

i'm scared

i'm alone

When will I be my own home?

Reviews

[Amorous Palm]

Gives me a sence of someone understands me

[Rachid Amrani]

Beautiful poem! Well written. Though I don't write poetry, your poem really moved me like a tune from the strings of the violin. As soon as I read the first line, I wanted to read your poem to the end. Every line, every word is filled with fervid feelings and the revelations of an aching heart.

[beauitifulybroken]

Thank you for seeing my heart in this. That means more then I say, to be seen without judgement.

[Rachid Amrani]

You're welcome.