Show you

Show you

I don’t want to show you my pain

So I’ll lock myself in the bathroom to cry

I’ll come out when the tears subside

You’ll ask me what’s wrong and I’ll lie

Say I’m fine

Even though my smile is wavering

And my heart feels like it’s going to crack open

I don’t want to show you the pain

That continues to make my eyes water

I'll pretend I’m fine, and try not to smudge my makeup

I’ll say it’s allergies or something that will make the questions divide

I don’t want to be vulnerable 

It’s too painful to see the light go out in people's eyes

When they realize im made up of sadness and scars

The look of openness turns to discomfort

From the things I’ve gone through

From the friends, I’ve lost 

The people i used to belong to

Have discarded me as you do with an old blanket

When you outgrow the comfort