Will i know?

Overthinking, anxious thought patterns. When will i know what the point is?

I've never felt good enough

never great at anything spectacular

it seems I've been skating by

just getting through life on a whim

the wheels that have been carrying me

getting stuck in the mud

i overthink to the point of exhaustion

but when i go to sleep i cannot rest

if this life was a test

I've failed

if it has a deeper meaning

i can't see beyond the fog

that gathers in my head every morning

Lessons keep repeating

because i'm not learning

what needs to change

my edges are still sharp

will they soften with age

the point of all this is to say

what if i'm not great 

what if i'm just midiocure

and there is no point

who is to say there is meaning

in the way you move through life

my biggest fear is that i'll know

what i was meant to do

when it's too late

As i lay to rest  in my grave

where crows will come for shelter

and worms will be my warmth

Will i finally know

what was the point?

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[Linda Marie Van Tassell]

I think we all wonder if we have done enough, and the answer for most is a reverberating "no." For me, I think the purpose is just to live life to its fullest, to love with all of your heart, and to learn to let go of those things which are unimportant.

[John the Baptist]

Maybe Life just wanted to be you for a while. That's the truth about everyone. All the rest is human judgment, a not totally reliable source.