one day

Please take these words from my mouth

they feel too heavy to hold

I can't allow myself to speak

for my pain and struggles to be told

i wish you could reach inside my heart

and take the worries away

i wish i could leave all the burdens behind

just for one day

i would be light as the clouds, 

leaving my struggles behind

i could wander with bright eyes

and rose-colored glasses 

like i did when i was a child

before these words became razors

and started to tear at my tongue

now i feel like i have no voice

the damage has been done

if you could reach inside my soul 

and take the darkness out

 i'd finally be free

im sure of that, 

that there is no doubt

so if there is a god out there

could you please do me this favour

 reach within my heart

take away these troubles

and place them for someone else to hold

let me find that person

i can lean on when i'm hurting

because every person i thought i had

is a lesson i'm still learning

I feel as though i'm always replacable

and my world feels like it's broken

maybe i'm the problem

and this is  will always be my burden

my dream in this life is to be understood

to be loved for who i am 

seen for who I could

be without this sadness