sad

finding friends and then losing them, always feeling like I'm #2 :(

Where do I go from here? 

I question myself every time I feel like I've lost another friend

I find myself reaching out over and over again

the messages always left on read

it's starting to really mess with head

Is it something I did or said

something i wore, or is it something different instead?

i never find the answers so they pile up in my mind

driving me crazy, i always feel left behind

why am i never good enough to be the friend that stays

always left in the dark by myself 

i'm starting to get used to sleeping with my demons

the ones that tell  me i'll never be enough, 

i'm starting to really believe them

they are more real then the friends i thought i had

wanting to be wanted hurts so bad

a constant ache in my chest

a hole where my heart is supposed to be

when will it be my turn

when we the person who is picked first be me?

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Unfortunately I think this is a very relatable thing. I know for me personally, I've always struggled with friendships. Like any relationship, they take a lot of work and sometimes the first thing you have to realize is that if only one person is putting in that effort it isn't going to work out and that isn't the kind of friend you need anyway. Not that that makes it any better, but it's something I'd learned and figured I'd pass it along.
There's something really poignant in the line about the demons being more real than the friends you thought you had. I think you've really articulated feelings I know I've definitely felt before in a very interesting way. Good write.