AN OUTRAGEOUS CRY

The inner demons of a girl who has been sexually abused as a child by her father figure.

When you first called me to you
With that sickly sweet smile
Your voice dripping with honey
I didn't know you were calling me to my
DOOM!
Everytime you showered me with presents
I only saw a loving man
A loving father figure in you
Who will protect and cherish me
for whole my life
But in the dark abyss of the nights
When people failed to notice
You crept into my bed with me
And lifted my little dotted frock.
Little girl I was
Didn't know what was happening
Except the man whom she idolized
The man who was her hero
Doing something that felt WRONG
To my little heart.
When he lied down beside me
And pushed my thighs apart with his knees
I didn't know I was being violated.
Just that daddy didn't want me to
talk to anyone About it.
He gave me anything and everything
Sweets chocolates and dolls
Everything my little heart wanted
By taking something back From me.
From a baby girl of 3 years old.
He RIPPED my pink frock off of me
And pressed himself into me
Little girl wondered
Why she was SO VERY SAD
When daddy told her everything he
did was to love her.
Little girl grew sadder and sadder
She spent her time crying
without knowing the reason
And once she thought to tell her mamma.
Then remembered that all daddy
WANTED
Was her HAPPINESS.
So she kept mum and lied still
When he RIPPED her frocks.
Little girl grew and I was no more little girl
When I got away from daddy
I was glad eventhough I didn't know why
Then as time passed
As I realized what happened
My mind got burned
All those fairytales
Colorful rainbows
Dreams and flowers and butterflies
Everything a LIE
My beautiful heart broken
My trust and faith
Broken into pieces.
Pieces which bled
Sharp,jagged,painful ends.
Once little girl I was
Still lives my life
Only to survive
I fight.I defend.
Rude and arrogant.
Still in the depths of sleepless nights.
I lie on the covers of my bed
Scared...worthless.
You have NO IDEA what you did to me
I want to SCREAM
But I kept quiet
For those who love me still.
A love that is as pure and
unconditional as it comes.
So I suffered silently.
You DESTROYED me,I cried
You RIPPED my dotted pink frock apart.
You SQUASHED my soul into nothing
You SHREDDED it into pieces.
Oh man!I hope you will rott in hell.
Even the deepest pits wont be enough
Cruelest punishments wont be enough
For you not only destroyed a childhood.
But also a present and future of a girl.
A girl who cries herself into sleep
A girl who never escaped nightmares
A girl whose bright world you
plunged into darkness
A girl who fight for survival
A girl who DESPERATELY want to be happy
But is unable to.
A girl who cringes even at casual touches.
A girl who you destroyed.
Because its you I see
Everytime I try to be happy
Everytime I fake a smile
Everytime I mentally cringe around people
I'm swearing this in my own blood
Oh man!You WILL suffer.
You will suffer like no one else.
You will suffer terribly.
For all your sins.
For all your deceiving.
Man..You are going to SUFFER

Author's Note

Honest reviews and constructive criticisms are more than welcome.

Reviews

[Honey-Bee]

I have heard many a stories like this one, and I am so sorry for the children who have had to endure this. A child should never have to suffer like this. The suffering must have been tremendous for a child to go through. I pray for you and all to heal and enjoy a life of joy that was meant to be.

[Sky]

No girl child deserves this.They deserve fairytales.Nit heartbreak and pain.And again..Its not about me.But a friend of mine.She requested me to write something about it.So I did.

[Honey-Bee]

Well, You did a good job for your friend!

[Jack Kennedy]

i can't perasonally relate to this but this is a honest and sad poem that speaks volumes!
9.4/10

[Sky]

Thank you. :-)

[melissa]

My dad never touched me but I was raped by 2 different uncles and took me a while before I could forgive them keep up the great work and keep sending me more to read i love reading them and stay strong

[Sky]

Uh..This is not abt me..I wrote it fr a frnd of mine..And she is strong.Incredibly so.Thanks for your kind words :-)

[Patricia]

I so admire you and your strength and I know how difficult this one was to write and even read back to yourself much less put it out there for the world to see....I hope you see that we see strength, beauty, and a real survivor. I understand this kind of pain although the circumstances are not the same because it wasn't my father but I do know of this pain. I have written a poem on the same subject so I know what it took for you to write this and share it. I can only say how proud I am of you for doing this and this is a powerful well written poem! Don't change a word cuz it's perfect. :)

[Sky]

aww...Thank you so much.. :-) means a lot.

[Patricia]

You're welcome sweetie :)

[Luna Zerimar]

And all daddy wanted to do was love her,
he told her he loved her,
that we would do anything for her,

isn't it funny how now he does nothing for her?
how he isn't even around?

all he did was hurt her,
violated her,

now she cuts her skin,
now she carries everything within,

she's scared,
worthless,

and all daddy wanted to do was love her.




Your poem bought me to tears. I think you know why. Not my father, but someone who I once considered my dear, dear dad....

[Sky]

Stay strong dear..We cant end our lives because of it.We have to suffer in our own eternal hell.But we have to move on and show life that it cannot defeat us.There is nothing wrong with breaking once a while.To stay down.But always stand up taller and stronger.

[Luna Zerimar]

I know. This poem is great.

[Aayushi]

I am speechless I can't comment on this I can only say You choose to write on a topic that's very serious and strong in itself and you did justice to it...awesome poem, nice work

[Sky]

Thank you for your kind words Aayushi..Could you help me to get it recognized?I just joined here.So..

[Aayushi]

Even I am new to this site. just joined 2 days back.

[Sky]

Wow..newbies huh? :-)

[Aayushi]

yea...so lets welcome each other on writerscafe... :)

[Hope]

It breaks you apart ..you hear about it everyday..but the one who feels it breaks ...honestly..this poem reaches out to its reader...a massive flow of agony, of thoughts which stuns you ! real or not..you and me and everyone gotta be strong !

[Sky]

Thank you for your understanding Hope.I'm new here,So I didn't expect someone to notice this poem this soon.And yeah.Gotta be strong. :-)

[Hope]

Well..you are welcome to the site ! Your poem is strong enough to get noticed ..nothing on my part :) good job !

[Sky]

Thanks a lot dear..I will be greatful if you could introduce me to some of your friends.Just so that I'm not completely alone here.

[Hope]

Of course :) See ..i'm kinda new so let me see what i can do..i'll try my best !

[Sky]

Sure..Friends? :-)

[Hope]

Of course ! :)

[Sky]

wow..I got my first friend within 15 mnts..not bad.

[Hope]

:) :) :) :D