AN OUTRAGEOUS CRYA Poem by SkyThe inner demons of a girl who has been sexually abused as a child by her father figure.
When you first called me to you
With that sickly sweet smile Your voice dripping with honey I didn't know you were calling me to my DOOM! Everytime you showered me with presents I only saw a loving man A loving father figure in you Who will protect and cherish me for whole my life But in the dark abyss of the nights When people failed to notice You crept into my bed with me And lifted my little dotted frock. Little girl I was Didn't know what was happening Except the man whom she idolized The man who was her hero Doing something that felt WRONG To my little heart. When he lied down beside me And pushed my thighs apart with his knees I didn't know I was being violated. Just that daddy didn't want me to talk to anyone About it. He gave me anything and everything Sweets chocolates and dolls Everything my little heart wanted By taking something back From me. From a baby girl of 3 years old. He RIPPED my pink frock off of me And pressed himself into me Little girl wondered Why she was SO VERY SAD When daddy told her everything he did was to love her. Little girl grew sadder and sadder She spent her time crying without knowing the reason And once she thought to tell her mamma. Then remembered that all daddy WANTED Was her HAPPINESS. So she kept mum and lied still When he RIPPED her frocks. Little girl grew and I was no more little girl When I got away from daddy I was glad eventhough I didn't know why Then as time passed As I realized what happened My mind got burned All those fairytales Colorful rainbows Dreams and flowers and butterflies Everything a LIE My beautiful heart broken My trust and faith Broken into pieces. Pieces which bled Sharp,jagged,painful ends. Once little girl I was Still lives my life Only to survive I fight.I defend. Rude and arrogant. Still in the depths of sleepless nights. I lie on the covers of my bed Scared...worthless. You have NO IDEA what you did to me I want to SCREAM But I kept quiet For those who love me still. A love that is as pure and unconditional as it comes. So I suffered silently. You DESTROYED me,I cried You RIPPED my dotted pink frock apart. You SQUASHED my soul into nothing You SHREDDED it into pieces. Oh man!I hope you will rott in hell. Even the deepest pits wont be enough Cruelest punishments wont be enough For you not only destroyed a childhood. But also a present and future of a girl. A girl who cries herself into sleep A girl who never escaped nightmares A girl whose bright world you plunged into darkness A girl who fight for survival A girl who DESPERATELY want to be happy But is unable to. A girl who cringes even at casual touches. A girl who you destroyed. Because its you I see Everytime I try to be happy Everytime I fake a smile Everytime I mentally cringe around people I'm swearing this in my own blood Oh man!You WILL suffer. You will suffer like no one else. You will suffer terribly. For all your sins. For all your deceiving. Man..You are going to SUFFER © 2014 SkyAuthor's Note
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Added on April 8, 2014Last Updated on April 10, 2014 Tags: Slam poetry AuthorSkyAboutI'm just a simple girl with a great love for reading and writing.English is not my native.But I try still.I'm not a good writer per se.I started writing as a welcome distraction from my depression.I w.. more..Writing
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