Hiding the Truth Inside Concrete Walls

5/7/15

She's crying in her room at night,
wasting through words
and over-rehearsed lies
because there was never a truth
she was able to share.

Her heart was filled with landmines
placed there by his hand,
every unspoken promise of passion
that she would never understand.

He shot bullets in his silence,
ground her self-esteem into the dirt
until she was so small
she couldn't even tell if she was standing.

Left behind and broken,
spray-painted S.O.S. on concrete walls
that only faced towards her.
He forced a romance on her life
she didn't choose to be her own,
but never outright refused
the taboo or the tears;
just shook her head in silence
as salt water rivers
mingled with her cheeks.

She crafted her disguise
from smiles and lies
but it was never enough
to keep it hidden
from herself.