like a prayer

blah blah and blah

let me break back
off before returning to
reality
there's so much
heartache in this world
without you
they said it would pass
I counted down the years
with empty bottles of
beer and pills
and s**t to change my
mind and make it up
into something new
but I turned strange
and everyone else kept
growing and blending
into that standard life
of kidscarsmarriageandbills
none of that ever floated
for me
and you knew differently
you were different
and sooooo yourself
more so than I was
me or that was that
and people loved you
for you
and no matter how many
eyes I fell in love with
or how many minutes I
spent in bed with others
or how many hands were
help under bridges as
rain and cars passed
I could only think of you
sosparklingblue
always changing grace
or forgetting faith
still living in it
breathing in it
being it
always perfect and
ready to move
back into art
the film of music
or dancing in paint
colors up to your
eyelids contrasting
those sharp eyes
which could stab my
heart and how you
would watch it bleed out
all of that love
with a smile and
a warm hug
and a soft kiss
pressed sweetly on
the cheek
but those years alone
these cold years
are so different
I've sutured myself
back up with s**t
people get locked up for
that humanity is gone
it disappeared with that
trust and longing for others
that desire to carry-on
and work on that dream of
kidscarsmarriageandbills
that all of my friends find
themselves occupied with
I can only blame myself
for becoming what I am
a dark shadow cut into
a sidewalk in Paris
a broken flashlight
shining nothing but darkness
a clown on its knees
riddled with sadness
then there's you
the contrast to this
madness
constantly moving on
destroying the old you
and becoming reborn
like a prayer
whispered in my head
as I lay down at night
and relive that blessing of
you

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[LisetteCanWrite!]

Great rant.. and rant on my friend.. very well done! It seems life can be empty with any path taken.. when we are hyptnotized by that of a haze of loving eyes in our memories.. whether you travel down the path of having children.. or without.. we all question our destiny! Looking back at this lover.. the grass is greener on the other side of the fence and most likely they occassionally do the same only with the needs of children that sometimes cry.. having great needs and responsibilities around them.. wishing to be frolicking around Paris.. thinking you are having the time of your life.. while you feel a dark shadow in such a place.. metaphorically speaking or not. I loved the energy and outpouring you share here.. I can truly relate on some occassions.. try not to live in regret .. but occassionally that ugly head rears and has to be fought far away! Live for the moment.. be you.. there is passion.. look at what you have created here! Great inspiration in that of reality.. lots of wisdom to feed the family people who aspire to be otherwise. =)