Thinking and Sinking

When I begin to think I start to fall,

My open mind engrossed in all,

The dark and light,

Of every night, 

Like looking at the stars so bright,

And distant,

Like you nowadays,

All our love, 

It starts to fade,

Into blackness,

Like a sea,

Of lies that all are free,

To be given as you please, 

To those you call your friends,

But in the end,

They are never,

are no better,

Then the weather,

when its worst.

The depression comes in bursts.

It pulls you deeper into darkness,

The fear already started,

Will they see what I'm feeling,

Or hear when I'm sobbing,

This feeling is robbing,

My soul of its happiness,

Replaced it with loneliness,

I've lost all my friends,

To the demon inside me,

It tears through my being,

And into my soul,

It eats away, 

Each every day,

And makes me stay, 

Far away, 

From other people, 

Trust some with my life,

And push the other ones away.

Even today, 

I make my way.