But In The End, I Still Love You.

I still love you. It's crazy but it's true.

I sit her twisting my spine

During the night and disrupting your late night wine.

You want to be mine?

I think you're out of f*****g line.

 

You see my words visually

You see me as you speak

You see me as you leave.

 

Keep walking darling don't turn back

Because I can't crack

You're everything that I f*****g lack!

 

I can't predict the future

And I can't forget the past.

All that torture

It all happened so fast.

 

Built up in your palms

I taste your tears

I shed my own blood

And forget all my fears.

 

You give me a reason

To keep breathing

But it's like treason

And I keep bleeding.

 

You're to many layers built up like a wall

You're to starstruck for the future

I can no longer stand up tall

You really consider yourself mature?

 

Just go and sleep around again you dirty f**k

You cheated on me like what the f*****g f**k?!

You BETRAYED ME

And I don't doubt "just one more time" right?

 

I hope you seen my face when you fucked them

I hope you felt f*****g pain

I wish you'd stop breathing

I wish I never met you!

 

S**t happened and this continues

I just have to hold still

Wheres my medication?

I need to take my pill.

 

Don't bother trying to stay

Don't bother getting angry either

I know when you f*****g stray

And a future with me you don't see neither.

 

But I guess this is rage all built up

I  cannot stay content

I mean who can stay that calm?

I'll show you what I got.

 

Try to do this again and I'll get you back

Don't you dare doubt my word.

You're lucky I came back

Yeah you're f*****g lucky.

 

If I didn't I would've hoped for the worst

I wish you wished I was dead I wish

You couldn't kiss my lips I wish

I was gone and vanished into a world.

 

The world I create in my mind

Every time I close my eyes

And fall into a slumber

But it never lasts

Oh, how I wish it would

Last forever.

 

Sometimes...

Sometimes I wish I

Was in a coma for a few years

So I could live in that one world

And build relations with my

Imagination.

 

I doubt that will happen

If it ever did

I would be predicting the future

And finally forgetting the past.