I'm a handful

A hodgepodge of thoughts, ideas, and time, whip across my minds eye. An imagined eyelid moves to block the blow, to stanch the swell of this chaos. 

My heart spooks into a frenzied beat and causes panic to thump in my ears. A buzz clings at my every inch numbing movement, taking control of my senses.

It’s this commotion that incites a full breath from my body. My lungs attempt to breathe a clear, steady mind; inhale all confusion until only a solitary solution survives. 

One blink. One involuntary gasp at air. And recognition enters the fray, anchored and solid against the whirlwind. Instinct lead by example and I turned to follow…

With deep breaths.

Oxygen began to gather in slow rhythm at breath’s hand and let calm sway through my veins slowly rocking my heart to sleep.

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[icelandicblue]

Ooh la la- well penned. It builds quite exquisitely.

[quinfinn]

is this about what i think it is? maybe i am just a perv at heart but i am thinking masturbation....of course there could be other more viable conclusions but that "sprung" to mind. at any rate, this is a very engaging and eloquently worded piece!

[bboooyd]

It's about a body's reaction to an unexpected, overwhelming stimulus. For me, this was an attempt to describe an anxiety attack's effect and the defense your body naturally uses in attempt to quell the hopelessness and dread. However sometimes a conscious, voluntary effort is needed.

Thanks for the read and the comment. Not everyone has experienced an anxiety attack, so my hope was this feeling, moment, and reaction would be related to other stiffua... sorry... situations as well. :)

[quinfinn]

oh, it is similar to orgasm in some respects but yes, i see that now. bad stuff, anxiety....