Pefairan

Title is a combination of the words "pain" and "fear" Picture is to illustrate the thoughts in my head

Blank piece of paper

Millions of thoughts

Racing though my mind

Hardly slowing down

For me to see what they are

 

The lines I see

Are perfectly organized

But the thoughts in my head

Are all smushed together

And I can’t focus on just one

 

If only I could

Put all of the thoughts

On to the paper here

Right in front of me

For then they’d be free

 

Freeing my thoughts

Would rid me of the burden

They cause me every second

Of every minute

Of every hour

 

Each day is a struggle

Every week 7 times worse

Months are unbearably long

But they years

They fly by so fast

 

My past in haunting

My future, terrifying

But the present is too

Fear and pain

Continuously over-take me

 

I express these things

Though my writing

But it never seems

To help me

The way that I need it to