Observer

I wrote this one day at school during lunch. I had been feeling really broken.

I've been lost before
Looks like I'm back again
Back to this emptiness
Feeling alone and broken
Where no one seems to care
And I just sit silently
Just an observer in my own life

Everyone around me moves
But I'm frozen like an ice cube
Left cold and shivering
With no warmth for miles
I'd settle for a hug
Just to be able to feel
Even if only for a second

Moments of life flash before me
I'm in the passenger seat
With absolutely no control
My life is no longer my own
But this zombie impersonator's
Who is pulling me even deeper
Into this depression I thought I was free of

The dark black abyss gets closer
I'm afraid I'm going to get hurt
I panic and begin crying
I try to scream but I cannot
Because I am just an observer
Unable to control any aspect of my life
I crash and every light goes out completely
Shutting my life switch off
And crushing my soul to pieces