Hidden Thoughts...

The greatest of days,

The darkest of nights.

My life starts crumbling

Just as it's built up again.

Mistakes are made,

And there are

Successes to be had;

Great decisions turn

Into failures just as bad.

Hiding the fear

So deep inside;

I don't wanna mess up;

Should I just

Run and hide?

My heart quivers with terror

As each day goes by;

What if I ruin

The only good thing in my life?

I'll go straight to Hell,

Back where I came from;

For, wasted is the one thing

I care about the most.

Never had I thought

Something could mean so much;

Nor had I imagined

I would be saved from myself.

Yet, what I once viewed

As impossible, illogical,

I now see in my life;

And I finally know

What true happiness is.

Still, I sit and ponder,

What would come of me,

If, one day,

I lost it all...