Reprogramming your brain

Felt a little anger today at myself and took it out on the computer

Reprogramming your brain

Time and tears have taken it's toll

Tears flowed silently down my face year after year

Time has hardened me leaving trails of reminders

Anger flows tonight, as his words revolve like a shot gun

Words that flowed permanently in my soul

Every hurt, every word he uttered

I know the scars are there, they were well hidden

The happiness I denied myself

The everyday reminders that file through my body

Like demons possessing my soul

I felt like a robot, not human

I separate myself from my body

My mind is a blank for days

Hiding within myself not letting anyone in

Will the words ever leave me

With all my energy I've slowly been taking back my life

It's been my life for so long

Reprogramming your brain

Explain the brain and how it works

Takes your energy

Author's Note

Feel a bit funny about posting this but hey I am

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

i am taken by the strength and courage of your poem .. too much hurt in the world ... easier to get shot and heal then to be wounded by words ... the power that the abusive one feels is hollow and will never satisfy them .. those are the brains that need the programming .. electric shock maybe ;) i am cheering for you BJ!!!
E.

[B.J]

Thank you so much for your comment, last night I was in a bit of anger but wrote it away. I did feel better Today is new day and I will move forward again. Thank you so much for your kindness

[Einstein Noodle]

it is a new day .. :) never give up; and keep getting up is a champions war cry ... love and peace!!
E.

[B.J]

Certainly its....

[wordman]

verbal abuse is far worse than a punch in the face and it goes with you forever
but you have to find a file to tuck it away and learn to smile, enjoy your self
take life in with all it`s beauty and splendor. The old way`s must pass so the new ones can come in

[B.J]

you are so right, I know. Today took its toll a bit on me, getting me to relax is hard work...I've found so much living out here where I do, so much peace and tranquility I surrounded myself with...Life comes back and bites you at times...Sorry I wrote that.

[wordman]

well it`s true life will sneak up on you I think if you live as right as you can it will all come together it`s troubles that define who you are we all go through the valley

[B.J]

We certainly do I will be fine tomorrow morning. Thank you so much for you time tonight..

[wordman]

any time,my door is open the light is on in the window I`m on the porch looking for visitors

[B.J]

:)>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>