Death is a Blessing

Why do I have to hurt you?
It's not like i try.
I don't mean to hurt you
Or make you run and cry.

I feel like the f*****g bad guy.
Robbing and stealing.
And hurting you so much.
I wish I'd f*****g die.

Maybe just one cut.
Maybe a few more.
I don't even have a razor.
I don't care anymore.

I'm the f*****g bad guy i know.
As i get on my knees and slice my throat.
Or tying the knot but not with her.
The one tied to the roof.

I see my feet swinging
As i step off from the bed.
The thoughts of all the pain I've caused.
Circling in my head.

I'm the f*****g bad guy.
Nobody will ever know.
How much I'll miss her when I go.
Dangling from my throat.

But the moment I wake up.
I start to whine and cry.
I know its just another dream of how I wish to die

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Death is many things. Can be a blessing too. A interesting poem. You described situation and dream. Dream of death means you are carrying a heavy load and need to release something. Thank you for sharing the poem. Made me think this morning.
Coyote

[Lone_Wolf]

You're welcome. Thanks for reading it :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[Cladine]

Terrific! It shows his conscience,guilty he has in his heart. His pain ,grief and desire to escape the reality was revealed in the dream . I think :D Also I can feel the pain with those words . I just love it!Great work!

[Lone_Wolf]

Haha this one is a she. But thank you!

[Lone_Wolf]

Lol ok. Have a good day

[Rahul Chhabra]

Death is what levels all the ups and downs of this life and brings peace. Dreams, reality, consciousness and death all are somehow tied together subtly.
The poem mentions the desire to die and escape this prison, to break all the bonds, but one. That is the central idea which makes it beautifully captivating and stays with the reader for long time.
When you are full of remorse, full of guilt, when you are just that f*****g bad guy, such dreams and thoughts "Circling in my head. " feels brutally true and touches to the lowest depths of the heart.
I truly loved the poem and your illustration of guilt. The last line line which is so stinging, holds a lot of pain and was definitely the best. Good luck. Happy writing. :)

[Lone_Wolf]

Wow. That was an awesome review thank you!

[Rahul Chhabra]

You are welcome. If you have some time to spare, do review my writing too.

[Lone_Wolf]

Sure. I'll try.