The Contradiction of Your Fingers as Dishonesty Takes My Place.A Poem by Jeanmarie Flaherty
Broken... egg shells and fingernails, there's nothing I can do to make this beautiful, and did I mention...
that we're running out of time, Dear?
There's not a sigh left that doesn't contradict itself, not a night where the memory of your skin...
doesn't visit me, but I suppose...
where I sat, breathing, waiting to heal, wasn't good enough for you, I suppose the room lacked light or the ability to speak and your voice got caught in the absence of curtains as you left me
bare.
The moon is mocking, she used to hold me when midnight fell, and you have settled for insanity...
my footsteps are buried in the shock of St. Augustine, the day that soaked me, my last real smile, and the teeth I
bared
for you.
These tears are cleaning me up, you know, little by little and my pieces still let light slip through, I can see you now, shadows dancing across walls with hands that shiver my spine, I can see you now...
you're bare
and I don't even know you.
Dishonesty is stubborn, she lives on your tongue, and while I wish for your kiss these days, she is refusing to leave, there's no room for love there, inside of your mouth, and I've captured sight of her vanity...
her mirrors reflect
you.
I'm deciding upon my imperfection, my only slipping breath, at least I'm honest in the things you hate about me, at least I've made love to sunlight and the audacity of the afternoon...
at least
I can take the pain.
One step farther, I told you, God, I let you know the severity of your mistakes
but your ears were clogged with insecurity and you saw me as the whisper of fear...
you saw me...
as I turned from you
but you never
listened
to me die.
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10 Reviews Added on August 14, 2009 Last Updated on August 15, 2009 AuthorJeanmarie FlahertyThe Gulf, FLAboutI am reality, I am art, I am every dream I've ever had and the corners of my childrens lips when they smile. I am tears and laughter, I am shoulders and knees, I am a writer, a photographer, a mother... more..Writing
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