Not Tonight, I Swear, I Promise, Not Next to Him.

 

He's not...

that discordant surreal Sunday,

he's not that memory, he's not these crooked tears

and I swear, I promise

I'm not...

broken, on the floor, shards of me reflecting

him.

I'd turn around and pick this up, everything that's collected underneath me, torn up scraps of love notes and the remains of

February

I'd be desperate if I found that to be attractive and piece together the scrawled frightened letters that destructed proclamations, that whispered promises, broken by the screaming of

hope.

We'll be someone, somewhere...

I swear, I promise

he'll find me somewhere, even if it's just my name...

scrawled out in despair by lonely, desperate hands that couldn't see me on the border of life that existed on a dirty, fingerprint~decorated wall.

I know we're afraid of losing beauty and I drop to my knees~bruised as they are~I wince in pain and cover my arms~

skinny as they are~

and pray the years are kind, pray these tears won't ruin me in the filth of stained pillows that refuse to forget...

that Sunday night...

that refuse to allow me to sleep alone.

He's not...

cruel but he's

crooked

and I straighten him out with the silence of my name, holding him, folded, in my arms~

bruised as they may be~

as his legs intertwine around my knees, knobby, skinny, and far too tired...

but I'm not...

broken, I swear, I promise...

not tonight~

anyway~

not next to him.

 

 

 

Reviews

[Raja]

Indcredible, Marvelous, Awesome, and sleek.

Also, nice way of arranging the words that are quite clear in meaning.

"We'll be someone, somewhere...

I swear, I promise

he'll find me somewhere, even if it's just my name...

scrawled out in despair by lonely, desperate hands that couldn't see me on the border of life that existed on a dirty, fingerprint~decorated wall."

I like this part very much.

Thank You.

Raja.

[Kitty]

This had me in tears... You understand why.

And so are the days of our lives...

Brilliant piece. Really moved me!!!! (and I'm in a rather immovable place right now!!!)

Josie

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Your poetry is some of the most prolific and beautifully honest I have ever read. You put everything into each poem.

even if it's just my name...

That line is absolutely brilliant. I wish I had written it.
I can't wait to read the next one.

~Menander

[siri]

woeh! you have such an organic and creative and unique writing style and i love everything you hav e created with words this is a brilliant piece thanks for sharing i loved it! send me more to read i would love to read more!

[Arthur Henn]

Your style and writing is something to admire. Thank you for sharing such an impressive piece.

Art

[universalove]

the heart i gave away i lost cause i did`t need it anymore. the tears of your sweet song brought back the beauty of respect for your spirit to write. i enjoy it.

[Legion]

You have a very impressive style here. I am "twitterpatted". ;) I love the way you seem to weave little pieces of imagery together to fabricate a quilted tapestry rich within a moment of life. Kudos. Also going in my favorites.

[HumaPuma]

This is so incredibly beautiful.
I love the style of your stanzas.
Beautiful work.

[An owl on the moon]

Such a fragrant depth to everything you do! This is moving and beautiful and brilliant... Your words are worlds unto themselves... Oh, I wish we could bottle your essence! You absolutely amaze me!!!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

This is really brilliant as you express those conflicted emotions of past love with present love, trying to let go of the past so your future is not lonely one... I'm glad Kara was pushing us to read your new work.