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and i wish that you could love me

and if you already do

then i wish i could just feel that 

because i feel so alone

and tired, hurt, played, destroyed 

by your everlasting presence.

when i dress up in those fancy clothes

and tie that tie tightly around my neck

when i comb my hair back

and shave everything off my face

then you are happy, when we go out. 

i fancy dressing up now and again, but am truly only happy

if i do so, on my own accord. 

it's as if my already existing presence isn't good enough

and improvements to myself need to be made.

when i talk, or dress, or act a certain way,

i can see the look on your face

and i can see how much you truly hate me in my natural form. 

and i'm not sure if i can live with that anymore

or even if i'm ready to continue living these certain lies

you wish me to hold, just for you 

Reviews

[Lilly]

Very nice poem here
It's one I can unfortunately relate to (maybe a bit too well...) though I assume most people could relate in one way or another.
It's not a nice feeling when someone you feel so much for, seems to wish you were different - even in small ways
You've presented this idea here well - really nice work!

[Calissa Knox]

It's very hard when an important person won't accept and love you for who you are, but instead wants to change you so they can love you for who you're not. This is a beautiful piece of writing!

[Vidya Bacchus]

It is very hard when the people who say they love you keep trying to change you.Nice poem

[Joe Barone]

thanks so much! i rlly appreciate it~

[Vidya Bacchus]

you are most welcome